Beautiful Torment

As my day starts to unravel
I can feel the ache carve in my heart in this travel;
Another day of anguish and pain

Another day of lost and gain

You broke me into a million pieces more.
Like grains of sands that is scattered on the floor;
Sulking, crying, scared, broken and deficit
I'm trying to put together what is left of it

I'm suspended in the eternity of longing and heart ache

Trapped in the future we build in this break;

It was brutal for me letting all of that go

It kills me inside, just taking each blow

Lately I just realize how badly you treated me
I asked, begged and pleaded for mercy;
Yet you were cruel, unjust in my eyes of faith
All the pain build up and started to became hate

The trauma of the experience of what you gave
The Pain was so intense, it almost took me to the grave
I never thought you would hurt me so bad
That it feels like a thousand knives stabs to my heart

All I did was love you with all of my heart
Took care of you and gave what you need from the start

If this is how you love me in return
I have taken it whole heartedly until i burn

 

Mesmerized

As I wake up and see your beautiful face

A gentle breeze in a warm place

I held you close right into my arms

An embrace so tight saving you from harm;

Feeling your breath around thee

Whispering saying stay with me

Kissing your fore head and cheeks

Like a butterfly saying I love you as it leaps;

Watching you sleep into the night

A subtle peace that is quite alright

Seeing your vulnerable state

Yet clinging, holding me not to wake;

I dream't that we were flying

soring high and both smiling

So I lay here beside you is a must

While the moon shine its rays on us;

I smiled and thank my lucky stars

That my love is here and not afar

So as this moment keeps us together

Our love and bond will always be forever; 

The Princess that I miss

Alone again as I sit in this empty room

Dreaming of the day to see you again
I would vow and be under you care
Serving you with all my heart

I'm thinking about you
Words that I always wanted to tell you

The thin straw that became a strong rope

Is now what binds me in this hope

Wish that I could be with you forever
And promise to leave you never

Broken thoughts that still leads to your grace

My longings that I embrace

Days without you seems so empty

As life has lost its meaning

How I missed you so much

A hurting feeling that can be cure by you

Thinking of the times that we were having fun

Remembering the days of life in the sun

As time ticks away, everyday we should learn

Love is patient and kind it expects nothing in return    

I wanted to be by your side always

For as long as I live out  all of my days

Set my life to you because your hard to find
The Princess in my mind

Silent Pain

Again as I try to sleep at night

I cried because the feeling is not right

I have lost the love I sought 

Its killing me inside which I cannot fought

I love her so much that my heart screams of her name

But I cannot be with her that is her game

The agony of each day trying to hold back

Emotions and feelings that has been kept intact 

Sometimes I want to die due to the ache in my heart

But she gives me time and attention and I'm not that smart

And everywhere I look, I see her smiling face

I think I'm crazy then my heart starts to race

I keep on asking my self, are you OK?

Are you sure? are you OK?

What is happening, are you still OK?

Is this OK? and I replied to my self that I'm ok...

I'm dying inside, so helpless

The love that I search so restless
This chest of mine is about to explode

Still trying to keep it in for the final reload

All I can do is pray for her

Let God keep her safe and be kind to her
Watch her every day skin to skin

And please do not allow her to experience the pain I'm in

Hope

As I wait for the day to end

Watching the clouds move and try to pretend

The time slowly passes which I cannot blame

I waited for you but you never came

I think I know now what she means

The signs that I was not able to glean

That I'm just a mere friend nothing more

Someone you can call but not adored

You suddenly changed and I don't know why

The day became so long and I  started to cry

Was it the things I have not done?

Or my feelings has not reach you? or are you trying to run?

I know that your hurting too

Do you think that I would do the same thing to you?

I love you so much and still I know not why?

I fallen for you and that's the reason I always try

I want to heal and mend your broken heart 

So that you can love and be loved

So you can become the same person you once were

And even if I'm not the one, you can start again

Falling and Falling

I don’t know what really happened

Every time I'm with this friend

All of a sudden, I was not feeling grey 

It wasn’t really any ordinary day

Every time we’ve ever talked and chatted

Time really flies and begged it not to stopped 

All I know is that in my heart, it can’t be the same

I always think of her, I think I'm going insane

Love might be the reason behind my infatuation 

But this sensation is what I love in this situation

I hope that my feelings would reach her

To show my sincerity if she prefer

But now, just looking at her photo makes my heart pound

I cannot stop the happiness and kilig, what I found

All the sudden having to look in your eyes makes me start to lose control of my heart

Keeping the symptoms hidden inside and trying to be smart

When you look into my eyes, I start to blush every time, I don’t understand

I'm not so sure on how to react when you reach out for my hand

I wish to make the moment stop with all my might

All I can do is dream about you every night

Royalty and Me

I was a fool to love a Princess

Not in my league and also priceless

I cannot offer a life of luxury and gold

I'm just a simple man trying to be bold

Yet I fallen for her with her beautiful smile

Her long black hair which I love her style

The soothing voice of calmness and peace

The funny jokes which she can only release

I was bewitch with her simplicity and charm

Cannot forget details about her warmth

A princess worthy of a prince

But I'm just me how can I convince?

I can see how far we are apart

She is rich and I only have my heart

I was so naïve that I didn't realize

I have nothing to offer and was not thinking too wise

A nobody that has nothing

A meaning less existence and not a king

Like the sun and the moon and stars

That can never become one so far

Still I love her with all my heart

It may not be enough and could keep us apart

I guess I'll die trying 

Proving her she is worth waiting