Ascend

You are mine, my hearts says out loud

Looking at you with grace and proud

Rise and meet me at my level
Because you know you should not settle

I'm waiting for you
I will always do
Hoping you haven't forgoten my promise to you dear

That even if the world ends, I will always be here 

Forever forever your still the one

Nights of solace has begun

I can still see your smiling face

Before I sleep and waking up to my amaze

I hear your voice and it hunts my soul
Singing the songs of making me whole

Remembering all the passions we shared

So hot and alluring while we stayed in bed

Waking up beside you was a dream

The scent of your hair I always gleam
How I wish for you to finally see

That you and I are meant to be

Transmute

Now as I step into a new phase

Life of solitude to run this race

I know exactly what I have to do
Work on this challenge to shake the blue

Shifting the time line once again

Forward and onward, again and again

Building once more what was put on hold

For creating lost and gain is geting too old

I lived a couple of lifetimes to be wise

Each chapter I knew, the ending and the price

I was so naive and tried to control it

Hoping to redo the outcome for it to fit

Alas I knew that it was not going well

I tried to see if it would come out of the shell

But force was not the case of usage
And it was only then, to let it be was the message

How I was cringing to make it work
Effort and time for what it deserve

Still this is another ending to accept

A season of change that I need to adept

Timeless Love

Surviving each single day without you

Is so heartbreaking, a painful view

If I was the one that could make it work

Our love would be endless, I would smirk

Bring me back into your life

My wishful thinking as I strive

I keep seeing your face everywhere

Your voice your touch, I need you here

I feel that we have loved each other before

Like I've known you for so long to the core

Lifetimes after lifetimes I believe we've met

And share a lot, that it caught up to the present

This kind of love feels like a mission

I cannot find myself loosing this connection

Each single day your always on my mind

I try to look for you everywhere, I cannot find

Reminiscing on our memories together

The photos of us showing the best in all weathers

But then our hearts got hurt and bleed
My forever forever is hanging on a thread

Grief & Sorrow

A silent weep a lingering moment 

Mere thoughts of you and atonement

Words express not, my feelings right now

Resentment and hate, but how?

My soul is screaming hurting in pain

Cries that falls down together with the rain

I scream out loud only in my brain
Suffering so much I cannot explain

For maybe I've lost a part of me

A vital piece which I gave so freely

The imporantance of it she did not see

Time and Loyalty is too expensive to thee

I regret that I've loved so much

It ate me alive and got crushed 

The days spent and memories together

Was washed and thrown away like it didnt matter

And now waiting as it hunts my soul
Physically and mentally it took its toll

Death has claimed me and now I fall

Burying my oldself and will never recall

Disintegration

Tears rush down each time I feel an ache

As to the person that I knew was nothing but a fake

I often find my self breaking down

Loosing emotional control is bound

My soul is screaming of the pain that you brought

A loud cry so silent, could only be heard in your thoughts

Like an butcher knife that can cut your flesh and bones

So agonizing and excruciating that you need to own

I prayed to God to take this pain away

As to its killing me inside out in both ways

The mental struggles that I need to endure

Forgeting it all, because my love was pure

The broken promises and inconsistency

Left me hanging and floating on this tears of sea

Crying my heart out to release it all

Bringing my self back each time I fall

Shaking, shivering, wondering and consoling oneself

Alone in my room trembling is all I felt

Consumed by fears resentment and anxiety
Guess this is all for me to take to see clarity

Breach of Faith

The day you showed me your betrayal

Is the time that strayed me away from you, a portrayal

The agony which I was not able to process

The hate that accumulated, all feelings into ashes

I was still trying and hoping going sober

But alas you showed me your true color

The innocences in your face that deceived me

The thought of you not doing things that was previously done onto me

The torture and un explainable pain I endured

The view of it burns my eyes wishing I was blind

I was so dumb founded by your smile

That it never crossed my mind that you would be that kind

I was losing my patience, and holding it in

The inner strength that I took from the beginning

To keep myself at bay was so straining

I cannot keep up with this pace of shaming

All I wanted was to explode in anger

And go outrage to everything, be the danger

Wasting all that hinders that has no say

Crashing everything that stands in my way

I was so consumed by this element

It was not so me as I intended

The peace in my head was washed out

The calm and collected goes out loud

As this path where it leads me through

A place that I must pursue

A distant location to reflect

The nirvana to make the life back in effect

Lost of Lost

A version of me which I try to hide

Was triggered and put out in sight

The beast that I was holding in

Was freed by the person I trusted with it.

The tolerance and chances that I gave

The goodness in every thing I save

The hope of change that I always crave

The you I dreamed to be so brave

 

I can now only see the damage done

The devistation of my self as one

I lost my peace with in me

I was at war with my self litterally

 

I never thought that it would be like this

Emotionaly draining and so de evaluating

The nonsense and drama

The accusation and karma

 

I thought I found the love that I sought 

I thought it was true that I fought

But alas this was not real

But my feelings was so profound in this deal

 

I hate what I've become

As to anger and hate I succumed  

I lost my way in the light

I wondered into the darkeness and take flight