My Torments at Night

At night, there’s really a sad feeling in the air when you’re all alone
All seems quiet and the peaceful, but all fades when you remember
The bad things that happen and the harsh words you said
The summary of the day that went wrong because of a single joke

Everything was going into play
But when emotions take place, it crushes and it really pays
I don’t know if tomorrow you will still be the same…
I know I was mean but I need to let you understand my claim

It’s not that I want an answer right away
But an honest answer would be better to say
I was hopping to have a turning point in this situation
But it went right straight in the path that made it worst

Now my nights are more miserable as they have always been
I don’t know if I can take more of this…
I’m almost going crazy thinking about you
What have you done to me that I can’t get you off my mind?

And as this night goes on and on everyday
Will I ever have peace of mind that I would have you someday?
The dream I try to dream at night and every other night
Guess it’s up to fate to make it smooth for me as I seek my place in you heart.

AGONY!

It’s hard to love when it’s one sided
You got to have a lot of courage and strength
Becoming a martyr as what it might look like
A journey that again I travel after 9 years

When will this end and will I ever change?
Why is it when I fall in love with someone I give my all?
Where have all the things I learned gone too?
Was I not aware that it’s leading back to that path again?

Guess I still haven’t learned the lesson that I’m plunging in again
May be I should take it slow and don’t rush
Is love a feeling that makes you feel good?
And is love, love when someone loves you back?

I only wanted to be love back so much by the person I love
Guess love does not excludes anyone that falls in it
Love maybe something to wait and wish for?
As much as possible I don’t wanna be back in that place again

Will it be ok if I just don’t feel anything?
I really wish that I’m better at this field
When all has left and I’m still here
One sided love is giving and doesn’t wait for anything in return.

UnFOLD

To my surprise I have fallen for her
With just one glance, all has been clear
After that night I’ve met sin and faltered
To loose my self and control my feelings

It started from a small text message, one after the other…
Then this is me now with her in my arms
Day one was really an awkward start for the both of us…
I went to fetch her and we got lost

We took a small road trip and watch as everything unravels
The getting to know each other period shovels
Day by day as we understand how we tick
Becomes very uneasy with her being too bossy

I didn’t look for a boss but a lover a girlfriend
Days pass and it still the same drama no end
I wanna escape and run away from her being to clingy
Can find a away to ditch her that was my tendency

But one day I tried with all my might to tell her what I have
That I cannot cope with her needs felt being grabbed
I know I hurt her but I need to be honest with what I feel
Were not compatible that I felt abused being too kind…

Rewind the Time

As I look at the pictures that we have
A lot of meaning per scene that I grabbed
The smiles that made me feel at ease
The places which we share, our loving moments I was so pleased

Is now but memories left in the shelf
And has been forgotten when your love runs out, it can’t be helped
I wish I could have done more
To let you slip away, I should have been more careful

You lost the feelings you have for me
And now look at the mess you left in for me
I’m so miserable, is now what I have become
Can’t picture my self with out you “shouting”, can’t calm

What did I do to make you go?
I did every possible thing that I could have done, didn’t it show?
Am I not good enough? Maybe that’s the reason…
Now I wish that I could died, drinking poison…

The hurt was so extreme that I cannot bear to live
It’s like the end of my existence and the promises we keep…
Lost the meaning of everything, when I was replaced
The distance and time was the real case…

Evening Rush

Excited on what you might wear tonight
Can’t picture the dress you have describe
And as I saw you coming from the gates
I never seen you so beautiful, with so much grace

I was stunned by her and can’t believe…
That she was the lady that makes me naïve
Amidst the crowd you’re the only one that I can see
You made me see that there something more that I can be

The switch which I set to off mode has been turned on
As to which I was trying to suppress my feelings, holding on
I’m so bewitch by her charm that I can’t hardly sleep at night
The pictures we shared, I always gaze and hope to dream it tonight

We talk about love and everything I have
My mind was blown away, can take my eye off of her
Time really fly’s and I’m having so much fun
To be the person with her tonight, I feel like the sun

But after the occasion we have to leave…
To say our goodbyes and goodnight kiss
I wish that the time would really stop
Coz I know that it will never happen again…

UnVoiced

People in life have their own share of thoughts
But most likely it’s always from that special someone a lot
There came a time which I never have encountered
Actions and words, already clashing so blurred

A act and decision that she make shows everything
A path she took, and now I’m on it lingering
You might likely see that I’m so so so naïve
Well I don’t know, it’s what I feel and what I perceive

She said No, but I know, she suppressing, cant bare
She acts like she doesn’t really care
You may feel awkward at times she would just leave you behind
But deep inside her heart she wants to me mine

All I can do is ease her up on what she might choose in life
To be someone she can always have, and cannot go on strike
I know she wants me to be there in her solitude
By reading her moves, I can tell her mood

I knew that all my actions was in vain from the very start
But I know somehow, I melted her frozen heart
So now as I journey the path to reach her from the stars
I would really be glad to pursue and endure to make it this far.

Let Time Fly

The day moves more slowly than ever
I keep on waiting to see tomorrow, I think I’ll get a fever
I need to see her, even for just a moment
Just to relive the ache inside my chest

Why am I so attached to what I have feeling for her...?
As if I can’t get enough of what I already had
Sometimes I wish that we can be more than just friends
But I’m glad of having her as my special friend

To laugh and talk about things that we did
The days we spent and the words we said
But now, that I’m in a place where she placed me in
A place which has a limit and boundaries

I can only do little and watch her just go by…
My mind screams, that I could do better than that…
Sometimes I ask my self are you crazy or dumb
Acting and making decisions that makes it worst

But even if that crossed my mind, I really don’t care
As long as I express what I have, and let my actions tell
To be with her forever is what I ask of her
I hope I’m not asking too much for something in return.