Burned Out

I guess when I dream the dream…
I have no intentions of waking up
To my surprise, the fantasy become reality
And you were gone when I opened my eyes

I really expected too much that it was so real to me
In my case, I tried to avoid it
To break away from you, is what I wanna do
For I know that I’m not worthy of you.

I have lied to her and to my self
Telling me to stop because it’s wrong
I know that I loved her even thou there’s a lot of issues
I ask myself that hey!? The girls not right for you, right?

There are times that I would just ignore her defects
Maybe that’s why they call love blind
I really have no reasons to fall in love with her
Guess I was just attracted to her being too innocent

But why? When I already have freedom
That I can still feel loneliness inside of me
The fact that I’m hurting even thou I want to let go of her
I did fall in love with her, because why can’t I stop my self from crying

Why do I feel miserable even that I did the right thing?
The feelings that I have for her has not vanished
I’m really having a hard time controlling myself
Because I know I have lost her forever

In my solitude I can still picture the two of us even before I go to sleep
I maybe naïve or stupid that I can’t see the truth
Now I’m lost with out her, and longing her to be with me
I found inspiration and joy and a little bit of love from her

As I tell my life again in this pages of my note book I cry…
The tears of losing someone dear to me
The time that runs without remorse
The memories left behind the corner of my mind

I wonder what it would be like if I would become her lover
I guess it would be great to be loved by her
In a faceless crowd I pour out myself
As I define the exact feelings I can find…

Moving On

I woke up today like every other day
I look around and didn’t see your face
I was wondering if I have forgotten it, I pray
I guess it’s still there, I’m afraid…

Thou I drank hard and partied with friends and get high
It always goes back to reality that you’re gone now
Still I can’t forget the day that you said good bye
I cried hard and scream in agony to my surprise how?

When all I did was to love you and be with you
Then you become uneasy that you have to let me go
Was I being to clingy or was I too caring? I don’t know what to do
I given my all and my feelings and actions did show.

You said you love me, so why do have to leave?
Can you just throw it all away now that I can’t bear it to see?
I’m having a hard time understanding why, please don’t leave?
My hearts almost at tilt in trying to make you stay.

Now that you’re gone and I’m here left alone
It brings a lot of memories when time has flown
The days we shared and everything else
Is gonna be forgotten like a cloud, that travels aimlessly.

When Regret comes into Play

To all the people that experienced the dilemma of loving
We always ask why do we have to let our heart win over our mind?
Are we not thinking clearly when we show affection?
Does the heart blind our mind to think straight?

The day again starts with a hole in your heart
That you have given up the person you have loved before
Is it really that easy to give up the love you shared?
Was it not a regret to go on your separate ways?

Another unequal decision that has been made, only to hurt each other
Why do we like to hurt when all we can do is love?
Is there something to it that makes it unavoidable?
You don’t realize that you only made each other hate one another.

Then the pain of leaving and losing
The pain of falling in and out of love
The mistakes that haven’t been corrected before anything else
Will always end to give you more suffering along the way.

Can you understand what I’m telling you?
Maybe not…. People now a days are to egoistic and the pride consumes it all
It never hurts to be humble and try to give your selves a chance
That love is pain and joy at the same time when you really love at all.

Ache of a Broken Heart

The pain of losing someone you love is unbearable
All you can think of is how you could have prevent it
Asking your self what has happened?
Then in a blink of an eye everything’s gone.

I think I have to hate love and hate to fall in love
It only brings misery and makes my life unorganized
My heart screams like it was crush and trampled
That the pain I experience was so indescribable.

I maybe crazy when I fall in love, maybe that’s the problem
I take things seriously, because I don’t want to hurt the person I love
But why…. When all has been said and done, do you have to go?
Why do you have to refuse my love when I can be that someone you need?

I guess I was so assuming of everything I do and I expected too much…
That's why maybe I fallen hard and solid to the floor with this anxiety
I don’t want to feel the feeling of hopelessness and uncertainty
I really don’t know where to start and find my way back to the road.

I wish I could remove this emotional barrier that surrounds me
To be numb is now what I’m asking for
To be heartless as I may describe it
For that can only pull me out of this place that I have fallen into.

Waterfalls of Tears

My life a mess again in my dark big room
Many has happened since today and the other day
Must love have to end with a single snap or boom?
Maybe I was so naive again to be in this spot to stay?

Agony as what it might seem, a never ending pain and tragedy
Already got me consumed with all I have left in me
A scene that I was not prepared to perform and lost my strategy
Amidst these feelings of helplessness I pity my self to be

Yearning, still waiting to what I call love to be shown by her
Years can only tell if it would happen or not, might as well be
You can only remove this hurt and remove me to suffer
Yelling out your name to rescue me and love me please…

Reasons for Actions

I’m not perfect and I’m only human
I have made mistakes and from that I try to make it right
I learned that if we feel something towards someone…
I know emotions take place to make you move to the light

Love can also make you move
Let it lead you and you will find happiness
Look even if it doesn’t show, just do the groove
Life my take you to places but never the less

Only you can choose the path you take
One must pass the test of time and faith as well
Once you failed, try again to see it with no more ache
Ounce of patience can help and will be your shell

Voice out once you gathered up your strength
Vain thou it might be, as long as you give it a shot
Victory may come in many aspects and length
Vest your self up for a blast and take your spot

You can only choose which and who you would love
You have given me something to hold on too, even it’s not that much
You make me fly with out wings like a dove
You given me a chance to show you how I love you so much.

When all I need is you...

Before I go to sleep I always pray that I have you with me
To see you here beside me and smell the scent of you hair
I need you so much that I want you to see
That I’m nothing with out you, if your not here

My days will be so blue and gray if I don’t have you
Like a painting with no color and doesn’t express any single thought
I’m afraid to be alone, it worries me a lot but you don’t have a clue
To what I’m feeling when you’re on your oath

I think that it’s just a dream that we would ever be
Lovers as what they call it or vise versa
Still a hopeless romantic I haven’t changed at all, maybe…
But as I go through this agony of not having you, like no bursa

The excruciating pain I feel every time I look at your picture
That what all we can be are just being mere friends
And we can never be what I always picture in my mind, so unsure…
Maybe this will change someday if I patiently wait till the end

So now as the madness ends tonight
My thoughts are filled with good memories that we had
Still wishing that I can have you someday as my girl, trying to fight faith
I’m still stuck in the friend zone, still I’m glad…