The Day I Met You

The day i saw your face i had no clue
To my surprise you change my point of view
I have no idea that one day i was already falling
I t so fast that i cannot stop it from showing

I felt that i become somebody new
That i was now asking my self why i was yearning for you...
Why was my head keeps on repeating your name
And the pictures we shared i can stop but look at the frame

Up to now i cannot stop myself from glancing at you
I still think of you before i go to sleep
The fact that i loved you makes it hard to forget you
May be i really wanna be with you, all the time to keep

I maybe no one special in your life
I may not be the person that leaves a throb in you heart
But i’ll always be here when ever you feel to be with me
I'll prove that ill stay even if you go away.

Lossing my life

My thoughts are now filled with uncertainties
A lot of doubt and fear halted my abilities
This overwhelmed me, swallowed to grime
For this I’m nothing, and worthless at the same time.

Waking up each day feels like a drag…
Knowing that something is gone or missing in shag
I find it now difficult to reach you in this state
I feel down and anxiety has eaten me down to its plate.

Can’t seem to fix my self when I’m in public
Lost my will to strive, no more vision to seek
I lost the inspiration I had, and my will…
I just wanna stay in my room and overdose with sleeping pills.

For that I find comfort and hope that this would mend
Sometimes I wish not to wake up and see it all end
Maybe it’s better that way?
The pain will stop and the anxiety might sway.

My Stupid Mistake!

The things I’ve done to make you cry
The things I said and all the lies
All still echoes in my head
And all the words you have said

I was the stupid guy that missed his girl
Now look at what the pain brought with a hurl
I can’t find the right words to say
All I can do now is pray…

To my cravings, I tried to fight
To stay away from another love, because it’s not right…
I made a boundary but I guess it was too late
Move out away from the girl that resembles her.

Now I can only wish for her forgiveness
Because I didn’t had the courage to control my self
I acted foolish and tried to feel my self in her arms again
The pictures we had that resembles her.

I’m sorry if I felt the need of your touch
I’m sorry for being careless and reckless in everything I do
I was so stubborn to realize that she was not you…
That I thought I have you back with me…

I missed you so much that I wanna see you everyday
I missed your smiles and the kisses you gave
I love you so much even if you don’t believe me
My heart found its home with you

Now I can’t sleep tonight
For I have the feeling of losing you now…
I was so stupid to make those things
And now I see you going far away than ever…

I know it’s hard to forgive me with what I’ve done
I was not expecting you to take me back again
I’m only human and I’m not perfect
I have my own limits when it reaches it peak.

Caught Up!

The day was wrong and the timing was bad
When all problems and hidden agendas get out of hand
I already foreseen that this would happen
And I really wanted to be found out and let it began.

As my days really got so down and unpleasant
Things has taken a big turn again with what I didn’t want
As my friend always say, that when the wheels of life turn
Today you’re maybe above then the next thing you’re down to burn.

As this goes on with more burdens to carry at my back
I only wish that it would get lighter and get on the right track
Making my way out to anxiety and the dilemmas I choose
It’s only a matter of time when I run out of juice.

This has been my weakness, to make it to a point of being caught
The conscience I take with each wrong thing I bought
Making my self open and waiting to be off guard
Because I know that this is the right thing, but it’s hard…

Now that things are beginning to tumble down, one by one
I hope I can still catch them all one by one
If I can’t catch it all, I’ll just choose the things that are most important…
Things I hold dear in my heart, and let all fall, but still I don’t want.

My Girl

She’s the first person to come into your mind
You try to search everywhere but you can’t find
For only she knows what is best for you…
And then you find your self trying to guess what she feels for you

Her voice touches your soul
Her touch makes you out of control
I think she bewitch me, I remind my self sometimes
But no matter how hard you try, time just seems to fly

So in every wrong move I make, she’s still the one
In my heart forever, she will never fade…
I know I hurt her once before…
So now I’ll do everything to make it up for all

For all the mistakes I did
And the harsh words I said
Never ever that will happen again
Even thou hope is in vain

I promise to promise what ever happens
As long as I live. I’ll cherish you for ever
I won’t make the same mistake
And I’ll show you my true self not fake

For now I truly understand
That you always have always given me your all
And now I know that you really love me so
How I wish that you would never ever go…

As the night goes on it's usual way
This is what I always pray
That this feeling for you will never fade
And thank God that he has given you to me and always keep you safe

And here in my moment of solitude
I try to reflect to all of my attitudes
On how to convince her, that what I say is true
That when she doubts me I feel so blue

I know you love me so much
That’s why I'm so touched
I’ll give everything that you would ever need
Like a plant that started from a seed

I love you so much, this words I give to you when ever we depart
And every time you think of me, you’re always in my heart
I wanna be by your side all day and night
Till the sun sets and the moon and the stars start to play tonight

And now as I close my eyes
I see you and me, then I realize
You’re always with me even when I sleep
I can see a vision of us together happy and free.

Undecided

Yesterday I tried to wait patiently for her
It took me forever upon waiting
Hope was almost lost co’z I really don’t know if she’s there
Then out of the blue she came along…

I was still lost for words and I don’t know what to say or do
I just wanna see her, maybe that's the truth…
It took me a lot of courage to approach her that I can’t speak her name
when I was behind her.
Then I called out her name calmly, she was so surprise to see me there.

I saw in her eyes that she missed me…
I ask for forgiveness and she just smiled at me
I was really unsure of what is going on
All I know is that I love her so much that I can’t think straight

I can see that she’s holding back towards her feelings for me
I know I hurt her so much that I was so selfish
I said harsh words to her that I can’t remember why?
May be I was really trying to break away…

I did broke the bond between us
Tried to be strong, but it really hurt a lot
Made my self busy but to no avail, tears fall in everything I do
Co’z I really want her badly, that it’s very wrong from the very start

So here I am so unsure of what will happen next
I can only wish that she would still be the same
I maybe pathetic but I can’t stop my self from making a way to see her
All I can do now is to wait and see, what the future holds let it unfold…

In my Solitude

I found my self, as always alone again
When I thought I found what I’m looking for
My mind clouded with the pain I’m having
My heart screams in pain co’z its hurting,

I was so used to waking up in the morning just to see you
Now I see my self craving for her even more
As I sit at the bench we used to date
I can still picture her smiles in front of my face.

Why can’t she let me into her heart?
Why is she afraid of loving me?
When will I have the courage to see her again?
Worst questions that crosses my mind…

My life’s a tragedy as what it might be…
A failure as what I can see
The best thing I can do is moving on
For that, the only thing that would stop me from holding on.