Take me to the TIME

A sound that breaks the barrier of a single grip

The wind that blew onto the ground

A sigh that came from that small window

I said that I wont make any expectations

But I become lonely

However I had no intentions if giving up

If the chime came to life

The reality would just pass quicker, right?

Unlike a window made of glass

My feelings were a bit different

Since then came freedom

My dream I just can’t seem to put it into words

On that painful night anyone could be my company

I knew what I wanted but I didn’t wish for it

I laughed at my weakness in my dreams

I just want to control it…

Because I don’t intend to lose

If a finger would have poked me back then

I wouldn’t turn around

If it’s me, so I don’t intend to be done in just yet

I cant bluff

I lost my hope to cheer up

Since I hesitate which way to choose

I didn’t want to become a hindrance

If I only have the resolve to understand….

It’s always a freedom to choose!

My dreams will never be a broken one

I moved on in a period when I was scared the most

I want to return to the wasted time when I just looked down

Dreams in which I smiled

I strongly believe in the generation changed by time

I leaned against the cracked wall in my room

Since I fulfilled what I vowed to do.

Volatile

Each careless step and false move,
Thou it may seem cool, and surprisingly unnoticed
It always ends with a lot of hate and regret
To which all of us has been ignoring

I may sound like I’m not involve in any case
It’s for all to know and for ME to take
Even you already knew, your wrong doings
You still continue up to the last break

But the thing is, we’re all curious to where it might lead
As to experience how our heart bleeds
Toying with our selves and others
A unjust and precautionary measure, a curse

To be true and fair coz I’m not that tough
I’m also a person in this field… I have suppressed long enough
plunge into this scariest venture, gamble of passion
to which I have been astray, this couple of days

Before I did set my life to which and where I must go
Been there, done that, see it all and still….
It knock in my mind to view and explore what else can I do?
As it all came clear and had endured the test

Suddenly I have been negligent and unjust
I found my self with someone else…
And the same thing happened the week after that…. X_X another girl X_X
All was really fast, like I tried to stay away and it still follows you

So while making this paragraph I have visualized
I’m not a saint or a martyr …
We have our limits and boundaries, but still you tend to cross it
Then again I was weak and my judgement was blinded with liquor.

The Girl Last Night

One night in a friends place
I saw a girl and was amazed by her grace
I really wanted to know her name
Tried to be a fool just to make her say

I got her name and cellphone number too!
Texting, calling, flirting till the night is through
After that day I was bewitch
To see her again I thought was just a wish!

I called her and we met
I learned a lot from her with everything she said
The girl I like was already with someone else
Raised my hopes high, but this is not the end

We kinda had an agreement and everything’s been set
Making a relationship like this feels so awkward
Like we are lovers already with no care
To which I was shocked co’z she was too fast for me!!!

When its time to say goodbye, I wanna be with her just for a while
I really wanna spend more time with her and gave a good night kiss
Don’t worry boy, I said to my self there’s always tomorrow….
And here I am again, alone and I don’t understand what happened?

Farewell….

The day has come when I will leave the room I’m so used to living in

My new journey is still disorienting me

On the bus to the station
I emailed my friend

On the platform in the morning, I tried calling too
But it felt like something had changed

I’ve brought one old guitar with me
I’ve left all my photos behind

Letting something go and then gaining something new
Does the same cycle repeat itself?

When I pretend to be strong, it always leads to dreams
When I let myself be cowardly, the insanity stops

As the train began to move
I cried a little….

I prayed that the road that spread out outside the window
Wouldn’t change

The person who gave me the old guitar
Is already gone now…

I’ve stopped looking for answers
It doesn’t matter if I make mistake after mistake

The red sunset is cut up by the buildings

I hold back my tears

But the beginning of each new morning
Will bring confusion for me, won’t it?

Going back to the place I have founded

Starting again from small scratches.

I can’t only choose the right things
That’s how much I really know

Apart

Why? when I have bonded…
Showed my true colors somehow
Made connections with mix feelings
Gave my trust and everything

Then out of the blue you’re all alone again
This scenario I experienced over and over
Will this ever end?
Why do it always finish in a sorrowful way?

Could there be another chance….
That we could be together again?
Making it possible even if its gone
Things that are asked inside my mind.

Longing is all I can do
Missing the moments and memories
Cherishing every time that you had
The remembering…..

Its gonna be hard from here and then
To make it through, the final calling
As I see me fall again and again…
Maybe I need something to catch me then?

Being apart makes you wonder
What’s life with or with out you in it?
Will I grow? Or will I be dragged?
Then again we choose our own destiny hehe! ^_^

Another Failure…

Once I though I would make it through

Like smooth sailing into the clear horizon

But then again storms can’t be predicted

So I was so relax and confident that I will reach shore.

Then the storm came and took all my men off board

The sails were broken down and the ship sank too

Now as I lie to bed and think what had went wrong?

Its always the captain of the ship that’s to blame of it all

My life is really full of disappointments

I never really expect too much in anything I do

I would go to any war around the world

I wont mind if I can’t return back home

There’s no meaning in life if it’s full of disappointments

It’s better to fight and die for the only thing that you believed in

Another chapter of my life has ended

Opening another one might be a disappointment

I don’t feel so good about my self anymore

I been rejected so many times before X_X

Lost my eagerness and pride

I need someone to comfort me and take me high

Someone that would be always there to console me

Against the odds with all I have left

To strive again is my next step

To climb and reach for success to reach the top never give up!

The Guilt…

A hunting a conscience shouting!

Telling you have done a deed that shouldn’t be

Having it with you makes you suffer

Time passes and the load gets heavier.

I was so naïve and so drunk

You wont know what a couple of shots may take you

Another day that has been called

To a new start I guess lets see what unfolds.

I feel like I took advantage or overtake the test of fate

I was so weak and I can’t control the urges

Now I’m here wondering and makin my self hate

The feeling that shouldn’t show I lost my courage!

I never expected to be so cold

As if I really didn’t knew that I could do it!

I tried to suppress every single ounce of it

But all spilled like water holding with your hands.

I can’t control it and was carried by it

I guess I have my limit and I did break

Now the remorse I have and the guilt I take

My hearts torn with to much ache.