Beautiful Torment

As my day starts to unravel

I can feel the ache carve in my heart in this travel;

Another day of anguish and pain

Another day of lost and gain

You broke me into a million pieces more.

Like grains of sands that is scattered on the floor;

Sulking, crying, scared, broken and deficit

I'm trying to put together what is left of it

I'm suspended in the eternity of longing and heart ache

Trapped in the future we build in this break;

It was brutal for me letting all of that go

It kills me inside, just taking each blow

Lately I just realize how badly you treated me

I asked, begged and pleaded for mercy;

Yet you were cruel, unjust in my eyes of faith

All the pain build up and started to became hate

The trauma of the experience of what you gave

The PAIN was so intense, it almost took me to the grave

I never thought you would hurt me so bad

That it feels like a thousand knives stabs to my heart

All I did was love you with all of my heart

Took care of you and gave what you need from the start

If this is how you love me in return

I have taken it whole heartedly until i burn 

Mesmerized

As I wake up and see your beautiful face

A gentle breeze in a warm place

I held you close right into my arms

An embrace so tight saving you from harm;

Feeling your breath around thee

Whispering saying stay with me

Kissing your fore head and cheeks

Like a butterfly saying I love you as it leaps;

Watching you sleep into the night

A subtle peace that is quite alright

Seeing your vulnerable state

Yet clinging, holding me not to wake;

I dream't that we were flying

soring high and both smiling

So I lay here beside you is a must

While the moon shine its rays on us;

I smiled and thank my lucky stars

That my love is here and not afar

So as this moment keeps us together

Our love and bond will always be forever;