Single as One...

Venturing life again hmm…., maybe fun… we’ll see
The time where you can be you… but sometimes can be so blue…
A journey again to search what was lost and setting one self to be free
This may be my reasons, after the end of my first chapter…

2nd Chapter… hmm… cannot make any out of it yet….
I have a lot of plans and dreams, but I want someone to share it with
But as far as I can see… maybe I don’t need someone yet…
I must focus first on my self from now on… I guess…

I used to be so dependent to the one that controls my life…
That I have gotten so used to it, that I was ok with it all of the time
I never thought or imagined this day would come…
That the love I kept for so long will be lost in just a blink of an eye….

Before I ask God, of all the things that you would take away from me….
I would allow it, just spare the person that I truly care about…
But I guess God took her away because I was so obsessed with her…
Now she’s gone and I’m here alone… wondering and still hurt…

Moving and facing each day… has been so different than before
You can always see the broken dreams and memories you recall
As this vortex of anxiety, pain, and depression consumes me
I just try to be strong and keep moving on… till I can reach my goals

Single as one as I may be… to the world they may never see
That being me in this point I’m in, is so very unhealthy
That I really really really… want someone to take my life…
Because everyday, when I remember what happened… the pain kills me inside…slowly you would wish that you want to die…

Can i B uRs?

the things that circles my mind...
is you... thats wat i always find
a day with out your smile
i would walk to see you even if its a mile...

i never tot i wud fall for u...
that i can make poems of love again to say i do
i know im not in the place to say this 2 u...
but i want u 2 know how i feel 4 u...

im just a simple guy with nothing to boast
nothing to give, just love letters in a post
i only have my words to make u belive me
that i keep them like promises because this things r important 2 me

i know that when it comes to love... i become dumb...
i dunno wat to do and sumtyms wat to say...
i can only hope that this poem can tell u a little bit about me...
and express wat i can't say... whenever im with you...

i was closing my self to everyone b4
because i tot love again wud just walk out of my door
i placed my self in a box so i wud be alone
then u came along, i tot i wud be out of this zone...

still im glad to have met u, the person i really adore
that i keep on looking at ur pics and i wanna see u more...
all i wanted to say, is can i be yours if its ok...
i wont be a burden nor a problem, i will just obey. ^_^

I Let Go...

I know this is hard to begin with, but it has to come out…
That the thing that you tried to save was really not there even if you shout!
When love has dried up and stops to flow
Can’t even fool your self anymore and it really shows…

Poems I make represent a piece of me
A part where I express my self for everyone to see…
As this one carries out the task of giving up
It’s not my fault or my mistake to stir this cup

I gave you chances to redeem and come back
Gave you reasons to see that it’s gonna be back on track
But what did you do? You’ve fooled me… all those years and months…
I thought you would change for good, that’s what I want

My heart was crushed so badly that I almost wanted to die
The pain was unimaginable that I can’t stop to cry
I shouted out and made my self bleed, just to transfer the pain I feel
I was so lost at those times, so much hurt can’t heal…

This day is marked in my calendar
I will always remember forever like a scar
That I was once so dependent and weak
To that person I once loved so much before, it so antique

To start a new beginning that’s what I may call it
Where everything develops from scratches and stone splits
I have to rearrange what is left in me
To foresee the task I must do in order to stop this plea

Now as this ends, with the final words
The goodbyes and take care, it may seem absurd
But what do we learn from this? Life constantly change
No matter how many you choose from, you will find your self empty when you’ve chosen the wrong one…

Someone… Reach Out….

Trying to live in the world we are all in
Where everyone experiences in scenes…
The part where everything seems unclear
And can’t calm and sleep for holding someone so dear.

A reason for every action is what I always say
To which I can find logical answers to each and every God Forsaken day
I’m already fed up to the feeling that pushes me down
That all I wanted was someone I can lean on to my frowns.

Maybe this is the time where I will go on solo
And find out what I need to complete my cargo
Will some out there help me to ease the pain I have
That I’m giving my self away, needing someone to love

I thought I was alright and fine with being alone
But I was still looking for a place to call my home.
I thought I would be strong and guess I could move on…
But I was not… that I cannot stop my self to cry when I’m in the loneliest tune

The songs I learned to sing before that I didn’t knew I could relate
Are now the songs I sing every time I feel sad and almost ready to break
This maybe what I was destined for, a very big major set back
I can only endure this situation, until someone pulls me out of this box I’m in…