Reality of Life

The sun sets as I watch from the sea shore
A ray of yellowish red and so much more…
Thinking of the things that I could have done
Some very late reactions, now it’s gone.

All I have is myself to blame
So I try to rephrase my life in this game…
Looser will always be looser
And winners will always be winners.

The facts of life which I learned
As I move towards the goal that I must earn.
The sea breeze a cool air that calms
To which I sit back and relax to the trees of palm.

Feeling the waves underneath my feet
And the sands that came along to greet…
I close my eyes and watch my past
Guess it will always be there, a broken glass…

Some things you cannot forget
Some things that gives you so much regret…
I just wish that the waves would carry me away
Far away and be gone.. or just die trying in vain…

Torn Inside of Me

A life that I once loved is already gone
Guess… I really haven’t move on…
I can never forget everything
Even thou I knew it has lost it's meaning.

Now I live my life as carefree as I wanna be
To which things doesn’t matter, that’s what I see
I portrait life in a much more different way
Than before… I gave my all and life just to be played.

Of all the persons that I have trusted so much
Of all the things I have shared that are unmatched
Of all the loved I gave and everything I could find
“Why…” is still the question that lingers on my mind…

As I try helping myself to recover
I see myself helping someone else and that I discover
That love never stops on loving
Even if the pain is too great to keep on going…

I know I’m still hurting…
Still I need to be strong to take this beating
A struggle inside of me to which I try to hide
A face I make to replace my broken pride.

Will that day of renewal ever come?
That I will be free from this pain that I can’t overcome?
Shall I find the love that I have lost?
Will she be fine even if our paths never cross?

I can’t stop and think about how she is…
That it hurts even more to love her after all of this…
For my heart still belongs to her…
Even if it’s so broken that every ache seems forever…

Fortune Dilemma

Beginnings maybe hard and uncertain
But to that challenges, will then opens the curtains
That life is what we do and live for
And the choices we take, to land or to anchor.

It’s difficult to choose from options that are given
Rather than the thought of nothing to believe in
But not all paths lead to a happy ending
And the things you thought right, is not what you are seeing.

Foresee things and trying to predict
That’s what I’m trying to constrict
Because it’s better to know first the results
Than to end up with a lot of faults.

For the events that come along will fool your eyes
Better think twice before you lose out of sight
The actions to be taken and reasons to be said
Will lose its meaning when you tumble down to the end.

So as I take note and unravel my thoughts
My judgment and common sense will always sought
Proving that the equilibrium of life has its floss
That in weighing which is which can remove you gross…