The Day I Met You

The day i saw your face i had no clue
To my surprise you change my point of view
I have no idea that one day i was already falling
I t so fast that i cannot stop it from showing

I felt that i become somebody new
That i was now asking my self why i was yearning for you...
Why was my head keeps on repeating your name
And the pictures we shared i can stop but look at the frame

Up to now i cannot stop myself from glancing at you
I still think of you before i go to sleep
The fact that i loved you makes it hard to forget you
May be i really wanna be with you, all the time to keep

I maybe no one special in your life
I may not be the person that leaves a throb in you heart
But i’ll always be here when ever you feel to be with me
I'll prove that ill stay even if you go away.

Lossing my life

My thoughts are now filled with uncertainties
A lot of doubt and fear halted my abilities
This overwhelmed me, swallowed to grime
For this I’m nothing, and worthless at the same time.

Waking up each day feels like a drag…
Knowing that something is gone or missing in shag
I find it now difficult to reach you in this state
I feel down and anxiety has eaten me down to its plate.

Can’t seem to fix my self when I’m in public
Lost my will to strive, no more vision to seek
I lost the inspiration I had, and my will…
I just wanna stay in my room and overdose with sleeping pills.

For that I find comfort and hope that this would mend
Sometimes I wish not to wake up and see it all end
Maybe it’s better that way?
The pain will stop and the anxiety might sway.

My Stupid Mistake!

The things I’ve done to make you cry
The things I said and all the lies
All still echoes in my head
And all the words you have said

I was the stupid guy that missed his girl
Now look at what the pain brought with a hurl
I can’t find the right words to say
All I can do now is pray…

To my cravings, I tried to fight
To stay away from another love, because it’s not right…
I made a boundary but I guess it was too late
Move out away from the girl that resembles her.

Now I can only wish for her forgiveness
Because I didn’t had the courage to control my self
I acted foolish and tried to feel my self in her arms again
The pictures we had that resembles her.

I’m sorry if I felt the need of your touch
I’m sorry for being careless and reckless in everything I do
I was so stubborn to realize that she was not you…
That I thought I have you back with me…

I missed you so much that I wanna see you everyday
I missed your smiles and the kisses you gave
I love you so much even if you don’t believe me
My heart found its home with you

Now I can’t sleep tonight
For I have the feeling of losing you now…
I was so stupid to make those things
And now I see you going far away than ever…

I know it’s hard to forgive me with what I’ve done
I was not expecting you to take me back again
I’m only human and I’m not perfect
I have my own limits when it reaches it peak.

Caught Up!

The day was wrong and the timing was bad
When all problems and hidden agendas get out of hand
I already foreseen that this would happen
And I really wanted to be found out and let it began.

As my days really got so down and unpleasant
Things has taken a big turn again with what I didn’t want
As my friend always say, that when the wheels of life turn
Today you’re maybe above then the next thing you’re down to burn.

As this goes on with more burdens to carry at my back
I only wish that it would get lighter and get on the right track
Making my way out to anxiety and the dilemmas I choose
It’s only a matter of time when I run out of juice.

This has been my weakness, to make it to a point of being caught
The conscience I take with each wrong thing I bought
Making my self open and waiting to be off guard
Because I know that this is the right thing, but it’s hard…

Now that things are beginning to tumble down, one by one
I hope I can still catch them all one by one
If I can’t catch it all, I’ll just choose the things that are most important…
Things I hold dear in my heart, and let all fall, but still I don’t want.

My Girl

She’s the first person to come into your mind
You try to search everywhere but you can’t find
For only she knows what is best for you…
And then you find your self trying to guess what she feels for you

Her voice touches your soul
Her touch makes you out of control
I think she bewitch me, I remind my self sometimes
But no matter how hard you try, time just seems to fly

So in every wrong move I make, she’s still the one
In my heart forever, she will never fade…
I know I hurt her once before…
So now I’ll do everything to make it up for all

For all the mistakes I did
And the harsh words I said
Never ever that will happen again
Even thou hope is in vain

I promise to promise what ever happens
As long as I live. I’ll cherish you for ever
I won’t make the same mistake
And I’ll show you my true self not fake

For now I truly understand
That you always have always given me your all
And now I know that you really love me so
How I wish that you would never ever go…

As the night goes on it's usual way
This is what I always pray
That this feeling for you will never fade
And thank God that he has given you to me and always keep you safe

And here in my moment of solitude
I try to reflect to all of my attitudes
On how to convince her, that what I say is true
That when she doubts me I feel so blue

I know you love me so much
That’s why I'm so touched
I’ll give everything that you would ever need
Like a plant that started from a seed

I love you so much, this words I give to you when ever we depart
And every time you think of me, you’re always in my heart
I wanna be by your side all day and night
Till the sun sets and the moon and the stars start to play tonight

And now as I close my eyes
I see you and me, then I realize
You’re always with me even when I sleep
I can see a vision of us together happy and free.

Undecided

Yesterday I tried to wait patiently for her
It took me forever upon waiting
Hope was almost lost co’z I really don’t know if she’s there
Then out of the blue she came along…

I was still lost for words and I don’t know what to say or do
I just wanna see her, maybe that's the truth…
It took me a lot of courage to approach her that I can’t speak her name
when I was behind her.
Then I called out her name calmly, she was so surprise to see me there.

I saw in her eyes that she missed me…
I ask for forgiveness and she just smiled at me
I was really unsure of what is going on
All I know is that I love her so much that I can’t think straight

I can see that she’s holding back towards her feelings for me
I know I hurt her so much that I was so selfish
I said harsh words to her that I can’t remember why?
May be I was really trying to break away…

I did broke the bond between us
Tried to be strong, but it really hurt a lot
Made my self busy but to no avail, tears fall in everything I do
Co’z I really want her badly, that it’s very wrong from the very start

So here I am so unsure of what will happen next
I can only wish that she would still be the same
I maybe pathetic but I can’t stop my self from making a way to see her
All I can do now is to wait and see, what the future holds let it unfold…

In my Solitude

I found my self, as always alone again
When I thought I found what I’m looking for
My mind clouded with the pain I’m having
My heart screams in pain co’z its hurting,

I was so used to waking up in the morning just to see you
Now I see my self craving for her even more
As I sit at the bench we used to date
I can still picture her smiles in front of my face.

Why can’t she let me into her heart?
Why is she afraid of loving me?
When will I have the courage to see her again?
Worst questions that crosses my mind…

My life’s a tragedy as what it might be…
A failure as what I can see
The best thing I can do is moving on
For that, the only thing that would stop me from holding on.

Burned Out

I guess when I dream the dream…
I have no intentions of waking up
To my surprise, the fantasy become reality
And you were gone when I opened my eyes

I really expected too much that it was so real to me
In my case, I tried to avoid it
To break away from you, is what I wanna do
For I know that I’m not worthy of you.

I have lied to her and to my self
Telling me to stop because it’s wrong
I know that I loved her even thou there’s a lot of issues
I ask myself that hey!? The girls not right for you, right?

There are times that I would just ignore her defects
Maybe that’s why they call love blind
I really have no reasons to fall in love with her
Guess I was just attracted to her being too innocent

But why? When I already have freedom
That I can still feel loneliness inside of me
The fact that I’m hurting even thou I want to let go of her
I did fall in love with her, because why can’t I stop my self from crying

Why do I feel miserable even that I did the right thing?
The feelings that I have for her has not vanished
I’m really having a hard time controlling myself
Because I know I have lost her forever

In my solitude I can still picture the two of us even before I go to sleep
I maybe naïve or stupid that I can’t see the truth
Now I’m lost with out her, and longing her to be with me
I found inspiration and joy and a little bit of love from her

As I tell my life again in this pages of my note book I cry…
The tears of losing someone dear to me
The time that runs without remorse
The memories left behind the corner of my mind

I wonder what it would be like if I would become her lover
I guess it would be great to be loved by her
In a faceless crowd I pour out myself
As I define the exact feelings I can find…

Moving On

I woke up today like every other day
I look around and didn’t see your face
I was wondering if I have forgotten it, I pray
I guess it’s still there, I’m afraid…

Thou I drank hard and partied with friends and get high
It always goes back to reality that you’re gone now
Still I can’t forget the day that you said good bye
I cried hard and scream in agony to my surprise how?

When all I did was to love you and be with you
Then you become uneasy that you have to let me go
Was I being to clingy or was I too caring? I don’t know what to do
I given my all and my feelings and actions did show.

You said you love me, so why do have to leave?
Can you just throw it all away now that I can’t bear it to see?
I’m having a hard time understanding why, please don’t leave?
My hearts almost at tilt in trying to make you stay.

Now that you’re gone and I’m here left alone
It brings a lot of memories when time has flown
The days we shared and everything else
Is gonna be forgotten like a cloud, that travels aimlessly.

When Regret comes into Play

To all the people that experienced the dilemma of loving
We always ask why do we have to let our heart win over our mind?
Are we not thinking clearly when we show affection?
Does the heart blind our mind to think straight?

The day again starts with a hole in your heart
That you have given up the person you have loved before
Is it really that easy to give up the love you shared?
Was it not a regret to go on your separate ways?

Another unequal decision that has been made, only to hurt each other
Why do we like to hurt when all we can do is love?
Is there something to it that makes it unavoidable?
You don’t realize that you only made each other hate one another.

Then the pain of leaving and losing
The pain of falling in and out of love
The mistakes that haven’t been corrected before anything else
Will always end to give you more suffering along the way.

Can you understand what I’m telling you?
Maybe not…. People now a days are to egoistic and the pride consumes it all
It never hurts to be humble and try to give your selves a chance
That love is pain and joy at the same time when you really love at all.

Ache of a Broken Heart

The pain of losing someone you love is unbearable
All you can think of is how you could have prevent it
Asking your self what has happened?
Then in a blink of an eye everything’s gone.

I think I have to hate love and hate to fall in love
It only brings misery and makes my life unorganized
My heart screams like it was crush and trampled
That the pain I experience was so indescribable.

I maybe crazy when I fall in love, maybe that’s the problem
I take things seriously, because I don’t want to hurt the person I love
But why…. When all has been said and done, do you have to go?
Why do you have to refuse my love when I can be that someone you need?

I guess I was so assuming of everything I do and I expected too much…
That's why maybe I fallen hard and solid to the floor with this anxiety
I don’t want to feel the feeling of hopelessness and uncertainty
I really don’t know where to start and find my way back to the road.

I wish I could remove this emotional barrier that surrounds me
To be numb is now what I’m asking for
To be heartless as I may describe it
For that can only pull me out of this place that I have fallen into.

Waterfalls of Tears

My life a mess again in my dark big room
Many has happened since today and the other day
Must love have to end with a single snap or boom?
Maybe I was so naive again to be in this spot to stay?

Agony as what it might seem, a never ending pain and tragedy
Already got me consumed with all I have left in me
A scene that I was not prepared to perform and lost my strategy
Amidst these feelings of helplessness I pity my self to be

Yearning, still waiting to what I call love to be shown by her
Years can only tell if it would happen or not, might as well be
You can only remove this hurt and remove me to suffer
Yelling out your name to rescue me and love me please…

Reasons for Actions

I’m not perfect and I’m only human
I have made mistakes and from that I try to make it right
I learned that if we feel something towards someone…
I know emotions take place to make you move to the light

Love can also make you move
Let it lead you and you will find happiness
Look even if it doesn’t show, just do the groove
Life my take you to places but never the less

Only you can choose the path you take
One must pass the test of time and faith as well
Once you failed, try again to see it with no more ache
Ounce of patience can help and will be your shell

Voice out once you gathered up your strength
Vain thou it might be, as long as you give it a shot
Victory may come in many aspects and length
Vest your self up for a blast and take your spot

You can only choose which and who you would love
You have given me something to hold on too, even it’s not that much
You make me fly with out wings like a dove
You given me a chance to show you how I love you so much.

When all I need is you...

Before I go to sleep I always pray that I have you with me
To see you here beside me and smell the scent of you hair
I need you so much that I want you to see
That I’m nothing with out you, if your not here

My days will be so blue and gray if I don’t have you
Like a painting with no color and doesn’t express any single thought
I’m afraid to be alone, it worries me a lot but you don’t have a clue
To what I’m feeling when you’re on your oath

I think that it’s just a dream that we would ever be
Lovers as what they call it or vise versa
Still a hopeless romantic I haven’t changed at all, maybe…
But as I go through this agony of not having you, like no bursa

The excruciating pain I feel every time I look at your picture
That what all we can be are just being mere friends
And we can never be what I always picture in my mind, so unsure…
Maybe this will change someday if I patiently wait till the end

So now as the madness ends tonight
My thoughts are filled with good memories that we had
Still wishing that I can have you someday as my girl, trying to fight faith
I’m still stuck in the friend zone, still I’m glad…

My Torments at Night

At night, there’s really a sad feeling in the air when you’re all alone
All seems quiet and the peaceful, but all fades when you remember
The bad things that happen and the harsh words you said
The summary of the day that went wrong because of a single joke

Everything was going into play
But when emotions take place, it crushes and it really pays
I don’t know if tomorrow you will still be the same…
I know I was mean but I need to let you understand my claim

It’s not that I want an answer right away
But an honest answer would be better to say
I was hopping to have a turning point in this situation
But it went right straight in the path that made it worst

Now my nights are more miserable as they have always been
I don’t know if I can take more of this…
I’m almost going crazy thinking about you
What have you done to me that I can’t get you off my mind?

And as this night goes on and on everyday
Will I ever have peace of mind that I would have you someday?
The dream I try to dream at night and every other night
Guess it’s up to fate to make it smooth for me as I seek my place in you heart.

AGONY!

It’s hard to love when it’s one sided
You got to have a lot of courage and strength
Becoming a martyr as what it might look like
A journey that again I travel after 9 years

When will this end and will I ever change?
Why is it when I fall in love with someone I give my all?
Where have all the things I learned gone too?
Was I not aware that it’s leading back to that path again?

Guess I still haven’t learned the lesson that I’m plunging in again
May be I should take it slow and don’t rush
Is love a feeling that makes you feel good?
And is love, love when someone loves you back?

I only wanted to be love back so much by the person I love
Guess love does not excludes anyone that falls in it
Love maybe something to wait and wish for?
As much as possible I don’t wanna be back in that place again

Will it be ok if I just don’t feel anything?
I really wish that I’m better at this field
When all has left and I’m still here
One sided love is giving and doesn’t wait for anything in return.