Friday, December 20, 2024

Timeless Love

Surviving each single day without you
Is so heartbreaking, a painful view
If I was the one that could make it work
Our love would be endless, I would smirk

Bring me back into your life
My wishful thinking as I strive
I keep seeing your face everywhere
Your voice your touch, I need you here

I feel that we have loved each other before
Like I've known you for so long to the core
Lifetimes after lifetimes I believe we've met
And share a lot, that it caught up to us to the present

This kind of love feels like a mission
I cannot find myself loosing this connection
Each single day your always on my mind
I try to look for you everywhere, I cannot find

Reminiscing on our memories together
The photos of us showing the best in all weathers
But then our hearts got hurt and bleed
My forever forever is hanging on a thread




Wednesday, December 18, 2024

Grief & Sorrow

A silent weep a lingering moment 
Mere thoughts of you and atonement
Words express not, my feelings right now
Resentment and hate, but how?

My soul is screaming hurting in pain
Cries that falls down together with the rain
I scream out loud only in my brain
Suffering so much I cannot explain

For maybe I've lost a part of me
A vital piece which I gave so freely
The imporantance of it she did not see
Time and Loyalty is too expensive to thee

I regret that I've loved so much
It ate me alive and got crushed 
The days spent and memories together
Was washed and thrown away like it didnt matter

And now waiting as it hunts my soul
Physically and mentally it took its toll
Death has claimed me and now I fall
Burying my oldself and will never recall

Thursday, December 12, 2024

Disintegration

Tears rush down each time I feel an ache
As to the person that I knew was nothing but a fake
I often find my self breaking down
Loosing emotional control is bound

My soul is screaming of the pain that you brought
A loud cry so silent, could only be heard in your thoughts
Like an butcher knife that can cut your flesh and bones
So agonizing and excruciating that you need to own

I prayed to God to take this pain away
As to its killing me inside out in both ways
The mental struggles that I need to endure
Forgeting it all, because my love was pure

The broken promises and inconsistency
Left me hanging and floating on this tears of sea
Crying my heart out to release it all
Bringing my self back each time I fall

Shaking, shivering, wondering and consoling oneself
Alone in my room trembling is all I felt
Consumed by fears resentment and anxiety
Guess this is all for me to take to see clarity

Thursday, December 5, 2024

Breach of Faith

The day you showed me your betrayal
Is the time that strayed me away from you, a portrayal
The agony which I was not able to process
The hate that accumulated, all feelings into ashes

I was still trying and hoping going sober
But alas you showed me your true color
The innocences in your face that deceived me
The thought of you not doing things that was previously done onto me

The torture and un explainable pain I endured
The view of it burns my eyes wishing I was blind
I was so dumb founded by your smile
That it never crossed my mind that you would be that kind

I was losing my patience, and holding it in
The inner strength that I took from the beginning
To keep myself at bay was so straining
I cannot keep up with this pace of shaming

All I wanted was to explode in anger
And go outrage to everything, be the danger
Wasting all that hinders that has no say
Crashing everything that stands in my way

I was so consumed by this element
It was not so me as I intended
The peace in my head was washed out
The calm and collected goes out loud

As this path where it leads me through
A place that I must pursue
A distant location to reflect
The nirvana to make the life back in effect

Tuesday, December 3, 2024

Lost of Lost

A version of me which I try to hide
Was triggered and put out in sight
The beast that I was holding in
Was freed by the person I trusted with it.

The tolerance and chances that I gave
The goodness in every thing I save
The hope of change that I always crave
The you I dreamed to be so brave
 
I can now only see the damage done
The devistation of my self as one
I lost my peace with in me
I was at war with my self litterally
 
I never thought that it would be like this
Emotionaly draining and so de evaluating
The nonsense and drama
The accusation and karma
 
I thought I found the love that I sought 
I thought it was true that I fought
But alas this was not real
But my feelings was so profound in this deal
 
I hate what I've become
As to anger and hate I succumed  
I lost my way in the light
I wondered into the darkeness and take flight

Tuesday, November 26, 2024

Pain in Silence

When the day I started to move on
There was doubt, a feeling of hesitation;
I thought I would never break free
But then, I was able to see
 
As the days passes by
feeling that it will be fine;
But as I thought of it getting better
The situation gets worser
 
Remembering the joy and the pain
Recalling the best and the worst gains;
The more I realize the mistakes
Which time was wasted for a love that was fake
 
Before I was blinded by love
That I thought it was too much have;
But little did I know
Gaslighting and manipulation did show
 
I did see all the red flags
But I was so naive to keep it un tagged;
It was my fault to fail in this situation
Was blindsided in this invitation
 
I crashed and burn which I cannot help
Realization is the day I found my self;
So as I wake up from this nigthmare of a dream
Scattered pieces of me, flowing like a stream

Thursday, October 31, 2024

Beautiful Torment

As my day starts to unravel
I can feel the ache carve in my heart in this travel;
Another day of anguish and pain
Another day of lost and gain

You broke me into a million pieces more.
Like grains of sands that is scattered on the floor;
Sulking, crying, scared, broken and deficit
I'm trying to put together what is left of it

I'm suspended in the eternity of longing and heart ache
Trapped in the future we build in this break;
It was brutal for me letting all of that go
It kills me inside, just taking each blow

Lately I just realize how badly you treated me
I asked, begged and pleaded for mercy;
Yet you were cruel, unjust in my eyes of faith
All the pain build up and started to became hate

The trauma of the experience of what you gave
The PAIN was so intense, it almost took me to the grave
I never thought you would hurt me so bad
That it feels like a thousand knives stabs to my heart

All I did was love you with all of my heart
Took care of you and gave what you need from the start
If this is how you love me in return
I have taken it whole heartedly until i burn 

Saturday, October 12, 2024

Mesmerized

As I wake up and see your beautiful face
A gentle breeze in a warm place
I held you close right into my arms
An embrace so tight saving you from harm;

Feeling your breath around thee
Whispering saying stay with me
Kissing your fore head and cheeks
Like a butterfly saying I love you as it leaps;

Watching you sleep into the night
A subtle peace that is quite alright
Seeing your vulnerable state
Yet clinging, holding me not to wake;

I dream't that we were flying
soring high and both smiling
So I lay here beside you is a must
While the moon shine its rays on us;

I smiled and thank my lucky stars
That my love is here and not afar
So as this moment keeps us together

Our love and bond will always be forever; 

Friday, August 30, 2024

The Perfect Match

When love came in front of me
I saw an image of you that we we meant to be
The glow that shines in you eyes
Which took me aloft and start to fly

For the love I thought would never come
Because I lost all hope when I fall in frown
I cannot believe that all of this is happening
That the new life I have with you is no my begining

I knew that when you came around
This world of mine would stop and had a clear sound
This was so perfect with the right timing
That each move I take was a good feeling

Days was so fine as we spent
Moments Together, Memories we would never forget
The feeling of joy which we found
The smile you put on my facee that was so profound

To show my gratitude which I always give
A point to where I show my thanks to you for I live
My life is now a whole because of thee
An event to which I didn't foresee

Love was so good as it came from you
A piece of me that was complete by you
I cannot imagine my days with you
For the gift you gave was my life from you

Thursday, July 18, 2024

My Shell

Once I found someone I was not expecting
I picked her up and move as it starts to cling
An icon of a lowest of low
A piece of a whole that cannot grow


A soul that was needing uplifting
A spirit that was crushed by life’s beating
I found her in the deepest steams
A hopeless situation as what it may seem 


The load was too much on her toll
The weight was un bearable and she crawls
A path where the light was shunned by darkness
A place where everything in the mind that has no rest


I took her by heart when I found her
Nurtured and help her grow to be fair
I gave her light and love
The basic things that everyone must have


Where I found her was very nostalgic
As to I was once in that area of tragic
But I was strong enough to break loose 
That is why I help her and gaved her a push

Sunday, June 23, 2024

Aking Princessa

 I was  amazed that you are a Princess

In another world and also priceless

I cannot offer a life of luxury and gold

I'm just a simple man trying to be bold.

 

 

Yet I fallen for you with your beautiful smile

Your long black brown red hair which I love your style

The soothing voice of calmness and peace

The funny jokes which you can only release.

 

 

I was bewitch with your simplicity and charm

Cannot forget details about your warmth

A princess worthy of a prince

But I'm just me how can I convince?

 

 

As I try to picture you in my mind

A lot of flash backs I find

You have always flooded my thoughts

Day and night that is why I given you the cross.

 

 

Still I love you with all my heart

It may not be enough and could keep us apart

Kakayanin ko to, para sayu I will keep on trying

Proving to you that you are worth waiting.

Tuesday, May 14, 2024

This Woman


Each time I see her along my way

Time stops before I can say hey!

I wanted to know your beautiful name

So I can call you like my flame

 

But time passes, still courage is missing

As the day goes dull like not living

A moment in time where all stands still

Seconds of regret becoming a bill

 

Love was just around the corner waiting to be true

Getting delayed without any pursue

Time was likely not yet on our side

Spaces that in the mind that keeps you bind

 

At last time gave us the chance

We meet and greet with our first glance

The sparkle in her eyes I cannot forget

Like the stars in the sky before the sun set

 

This time not a second too late

For this the future that we must create

Because if you let this slip away

Then forever forever will never stay