Disintegration

Tears rush down each time I feel an ache

As to the person that I knew was nothing but a fake

I often find my self breaking down

Loosing emotional control is bound

My soul is screaming of the pain that you brought

A loud cry so silent, could only be heard in your thoughts

Like an butcher knife that can cut your flesh and bones

So agonizing and excruciating that you need to own

I prayed to God to take this pain away

As to its killing me inside out in both ways

The mental struggles that I need to endure

Forgeting it all, because my love was pure

The broken promises and inconsistency

Left me hanging and floating on this tears of sea

Crying my heart out to release it all

Bringing my self back each time I fall

Shaking, shivering, wondering and consoling oneself

Alone in my room trembling is all I felt

Consumed by fears resentment and anxiety
Guess this is all for me to take to see clarity