Broken Rewind

At this time I can still feel the love I had for you
Not a single day your memory hunts me;
I dream of you beside me and I don't have a clue
Again trap, at a time which i didn't foresee.

I hate and I love you at the same time
But what else can I do? keep lying to my self;
Trying to hide everything and be fine
An inner voice saying I need you everyday

Although I know you betrayed me
You hurt me, killed me all at once
I'm still impaled into your presence
Like a free fall from a cliff and hitting the bottom.

As of now trusting again seems so very hard
Being lied so many times by someone you hold so dear;
Felt like a knife stabbed a thousand times from behind
And all you can do is just let it be and die inside.

Wishing I have never met you at all
And in the same time, was glad to have loved you;
I Showed you my world and everything I am
Hope that where ever you are, your happy and safe...

Back to Back

Your not alone
You and i have this bond between us
That bond has made me want to take a step forward
Let's link the colors of our dreams and create a bright rainbow up in the sky.

I had no forte
Lived back to back with inferiority
Nor did i have confidence
But you said to me with a smile,
What's so fun about that? and you went ahead of me.

When I'm alone inside a flash back
I synchronize with you we mash up
With you i can feel confident right now
Ready set from the minute I felt you in my heart
I was sure my dreams will come true.

I see your everlasting smile
You firmly took my hand, with you nothing is impossible
Your the only one who made me feel this way
You make up for the strength that i lack
I will cover the powers that you lack, let's fly away.

I hope that this don't stop in a stand still
I'll be there for you always so don't cry
Your not alone anymore
Everythings gonna be alright.

Reality

If the future you want to grab
No matter how many times you get hurt
Focus on your dreams
That's how we get past the present

Don't give into the flow of time, letting time slip away is no good
I felt as if even my footsteps will fade away
I have a place to head to, with my fist in the air
I'll ask myself and i shall move forward harder

Strive on my own and let go
What ever happens tomorrow just let it flow
We cannot control anything in this life
I shall face the world with pride

Falling down a thousand times
Because that's how it is
But getting up a thousand more

Will teach you so much you'll soar

Never look away from the obstacles that stand in your way

I don't wanna lose what I can realize

If you believe in your infinite powers

Let's keep on challenging forever and forever

A Plea of a Broken Heart

Almost every day I find my heart crushed

That I feel like not living in this world anymore

It’s like I’m dying each day because it’s too much

My emotions stir up till it sore;

I cannot explain how miserable I feel

How this life keeps on messing up with everything else

I gave my all, my everything my heart and soul

And in the end it was all in vain;

Memories of us hunts me everyday

The days in the sun, my world then was fun

The one love that gave my life back

A moment in my life which was fulfilling;

Now, I try to fight this struggle I’m in

Living alone, like a single tree in a desert

I’m just here waiting, waiting to rain

Life’s meaning is gone, when all make’s no sense

How I wish that this life of mine would end

For the meaning in it has been removed once again

I live this lonely life to only feel resent

I need help… please someone? I can’t take this pain;

The Repetition

I loved once again hoping it won’t end

But sadly the love I gain was just pretend

Never had I thought to feel this way again

Anguish and despair, feel of lost and pain;

May be I loved too much that it’s drowning

Or I loved less to lessen the mourning

Either way I have loved too much

So much that disappointment rush;

I really thought that she was the one

I really thought that I will be her only one

The sadness amidst in these tears of pain

Is somewhat freedom in this I gain?

My life alone, once more I dwell

Waiting again for love to stop this swell

Broken fragments of memories

Plays involuntarily that could not ease;

So now that this chapter is over

I’ll be hoping that the next time is not a dozer

A lasting and faithful person is what I really need

For the love I give is endless and steady speed;

FEAR

As the day starts and all still dim

I search for the light but cannot be seen;

My eyes still blur from its long slumber

The place I recall is still none any other.

Wondering how life would have been

If it didn’t change, will it still be on me?

Choices made and mistakes delivered

A frown on my face that was lost forever.

I feel like I’m dwelling in my past

For my thoughts lingering on what I was;

Dreams of yesterday still hunting me

A memory I want to erase.         

A life with worries and doubts

We struggle every day in our given bouts;

I wish that in life there is certainty

And assurance to the things we cherish mostly.

We all have to face it someday

And I had it and it has blown me away

I never wanna experience that in my life

Because I’m still starting to struggle in this strife.