The Broken...

Another night that I cannot sleep
Thoughts of sadness kept in too deep
I’m so lost and still trying to survive
The life I had where I lost everything, still I’m alive

Sometimes I really want to die
Sometimes I dreamed that it was just a lie
That the mess, that was still in my head
Keeps on flashing back and has no end…

How I wish that I could forget…
That I never had been like this and now comes regret
If only I could see the future
Then I can play my life freely for sure!

But the things are real now
Really is a big factor, that asks me how?
When I hold to that life I had before…
Guess God has his ways of taking things back and it sores

Again I cannot stop to think, what was that about?
Why does it need to happen? And will there be bout?
Revenge is the first thing that flows into my mind
Vengeance served cold, guess that’s what I can find…

The Long Wait… Frustrations…

Since when did I last heard you voice?
It seems like years, yet the day didn’t move an inch
To this point it made me no choice
When I was still startled yet I should have pinch

When your gone and left me behind
Plans we made slowly deteriorates
I cannot see the good in our relationship, you made me blind…
Blinded by the mistakes you done and turned me into hate

The love we used to have is slowly disappearing
Into the abyss, falling slowly, that has a bottomless pit
Where we see it all ends, I can no longer be daring
Because what you did close everything in a lid

I do loved you still, but you keep hurting me
That it was painful everyday for me to live on
And every word you said doesn’t makes sense, I cannot agree
You’re with someone else now facing new dawns

Still you say you love me?
How can that be? When you choose him over me?
That you disregard the years we had and just let it be…
How can we grow together if you can live without me?

A Wave of Silence....

Each moment in what you may call solitude
Is my stand still, and I feel so helpless in this attitude
That when I’m all alone, the memories that made me gray
Starts to overflow and depression come’s into play.

The little bit and pieces of events that passed
They carry me in the midst of thoughts and everything clashed
My life I cannot describe as I can describe it before
As the sea of dreams starts to dry up and sinks to the ocean floor

When you feel you’ve lost that very important thing in your life
That it cannot be replaced in just a matter of strife
Freaking out and almost loosing once self, knowing it’s gone
Insanity and reality seems hard to define as they become one

It’s not what everyone wants to hurdle in their lives
That every time you look at the mirror, you tend to lose your drive
Seeing that you went through hell and came back
Changes you in so many ways that redemption can make you crack

That sometimes you can think of evil things up to the very edge
Like selling your soul to the devil and be damned to get revenge
Still I’m trying calming my self not to do hasty things
For that if I did, I’ll be just like them, swallowed to the rings of hell as it may bring…

PoeM fOr mE..................

As I start to make myself at ease
Just to feel comfort from this leash
Events that went and my new beginning
The agony that still lingers from within

Facts in life that I had learned
Stepping stones for me to earn
Actions that was taken in each decision
The results that made a bad impression

I for one cannot even tell
The things that might be unsuspected to fell
I’m just me, making my way through life
Simple and ordinary but can cope up in hype

I see a lot of opportunities in this pace
But still… I need someone to get me back in the race
I want somebody to share my dreams with…
Someone I can trust and is always there when I bleed

When will be the day of independence and liberation?
The one thing that stops me from motion
When will the hole that was created in my heart disappear?
Like an arrow that went in and out so clear

As I see my days with no hope and despair
Someone take me away and have memories to share…
Because what is success if your alone?
For it’s the path to loneliness when your on your own…

If Only...

Sumtimes i wanna stop loving...
Just to stop the hurting...
Sumtimes i wanna be someone else
To try another life and make sum sense

Now i really understand that u don't need me
That i was a problem 2 u from the very start.
I'm Sorry if i had displeased or hurt u
It will never happen again for this will be the end

Sorry i was so persistent and nostalgic
you won't hear anything from me from now on.
I only wish that you would be fine in all u do
and Always take care like i always tell u...

The life i had b4 was so great, that it had to end...
An Event that i haven't foreseen that crushed me to bent
Maybe it's not the ryt time for me to love again...
I'm sorry to had mislead u then.

But what i said b4 was true...
I had fallen and already in loved with u
now as i say gudbye... i hold this feelings and suppress it inside
for it was my reasons for actions to move closer to u.