Silent Pain

Again as I try to sleep at night

I cried because the feeling is not right

I have lost the love I sought 

Its killing me inside which I cannot fought

I love her so much that my heart screams of her name

But I cannot be with her that is her game

The agony of each day trying to hold back

Emotions and feelings that has been kept intact 

Sometimes I want to die due to the ache in my heart

But she gives me time and attention and I'm not that smart

And everywhere I look, I see her smiling face

I think I'm crazy then my heart starts to race

I keep on asking my self, are you OK?

Are you sure? are you OK?

What is happening, are you still OK?

Is this OK? and I replied to my self that I'm ok...

I'm dying inside, so helpless

The love that I search so restless
This chest of mine is about to explode

Still trying to keep it in for the final reload

All I can do is pray for her

Let God keep her safe and be kind to her
Watch her every day skin to skin

And please do not allow her to experience the pain I'm in

Hope

As I wait for the day to end

Watching the clouds move and try to pretend

The time slowly passes which I cannot blame

I waited for you but you never came

I think I know now what she means

The signs that I was not able to glean

That I'm just a mere friend nothing more

Someone you can call but not adored

You suddenly changed and I don't know why

The day became so long and I  started to cry

Was it the things I have not done?

Or my feelings has not reach you? or are you trying to run?

I know that your hurting too

Do you think that I would do the same thing to you?

I love you so much and still I know not why?

I fallen for you and that's the reason I always try

I want to heal and mend your broken heart 

So that you can love and be loved

So you can become the same person you once were

And even if I'm not the one, you can start again

Falling and Falling

I don’t know what really happened

Every time I'm with this friend

All of a sudden, I was not feeling grey 

It wasn’t really any ordinary day

Every time we’ve ever talked and chatted

Time really flies and begged it not to stopped 

All I know is that in my heart, it can’t be the same

I always think of her, I think I'm going insane

Love might be the reason behind my infatuation 

But this sensation is what I love in this situation

I hope that my feelings would reach her

To show my sincerity if she prefer

But now, just looking at her photo makes my heart pound

I cannot stop the happiness and kilig, what I found

All the sudden having to look in your eyes makes me start to lose control of my heart

Keeping the symptoms hidden inside and trying to be smart

When you look into my eyes, I start to blush every time, I don’t understand

I'm not so sure on how to react when you reach out for my hand

I wish to make the moment stop with all my might

All I can do is dream about you every night

Royalty and Me

I was a fool to love a Princess

Not in my league and also priceless

I cannot offer a life of luxury and gold

I'm just a simple man trying to be bold

Yet I fallen for her with her beautiful smile

Her long black hair which I love her style

The soothing voice of calmness and peace

The funny jokes which she can only release

I was bewitch with her simplicity and charm

Cannot forget details about her warmth

A princess worthy of a prince

But I'm just me how can I convince?

I can see how far we are apart

She is rich and I only have my heart

I was so naïve that I didn't realize

I have nothing to offer and was not thinking too wise

A nobody that has nothing

A meaning less existence and not a king

Like the sun and the moon and stars

That can never become one so far

Still I love her with all my heart

It may not be enough and could keep us apart

I guess I'll die trying 

Proving her she is worth waiting

More than a Friend

At last I have confessed

My feelings for her and all of the rest

The emotions kept for so long

Exploded in a day so very strong

I was not gonna tell her

I was supposed to be just a chauffeur

I was fine just being like that

But it changed when I saw another tomcat

I cannot explain what I felt that day

All I can do is just watch in dismay

The though of losing her comes into play

I never thought to feel that way

Jealousy anguish and despair

trying to keep my cool and just be happy for her 

I was so lost for words on that moment

Realization hit me in the face and its content

I never thought that it was already love 

Until I felt the ache and all of the above

The inklings I thought I have conquered

But no, I already fallen for her