Till the Day Come

Lying here on my bed feeling numb
Wondering how the weeks will reveal
As I watch the clock ticks like a bomb
I look around and ask my self am I real?

So many questions fill up my head
To answer them all at once, I don’t have a clue
The day is slowly moving and my arms are wide spread
Listening to the wind as it blows me in to the blue

Right now as the world is fast asleep
I’m here again to ask God why I was made.
Am I like a tree that would someday lose all of its leaves?
Or am I gonna be a saint that would never fade?

I haven’t done anything that has meaning to me
When will be the day that I shall understand?
Looking my self in to the mirror and watch as I see
The person that I become and all I withstand

Having a hard time to fall asleep with all this things on my mind
I can only remember why I wait for tomorrow to shine
Coz maybe I’m waiting for someone to make me unwind
Someone that might understand me and can make me align

Acquainted Love

You think you have not felt the love others gave
To share ones moment a time to live
But who am I to tell you this?
Just a friend and not your lover

I try to reach out, struggling cannot shout
The way I really feel, what I wanna say
It’s just like the wind that comes and goes
It fades away after I said every word

Day pass and you went away
To search for you I did in any possible way
Months pass your nowhere in sight
I’m so desperate, can let go of the light

Then I found you! My heart jumps and my mind screams!
The day that I been waiting had happened
I thought that it was just a dream!
No time to waste, her number, her place, we’re in haste!

We date and jam, the night was still young
I thought that this will be the beginning
I really expected to be a part of you before we depart
We talk, walk, dance, and sing, I was having the time of my life

But tears fall last night as I heard you happy with someone else
That I could never be the one you cared the most
I wish I tried harder before she went away
All the time, the pain, and faith was neglected

Now here I am feeling sorry for my self
Swallowed by depress wanting to see death on my door step
And each heart ache brings me closer to the end
I’m still happy that you were my friend

"another old poem of mine in my high school days"

Precious

Her long black hair and gentle smile
I can’t explain how I feel when she passes by
Lost for words and stand like a statue
Stealing glances and picture perfect view

I don’t know why I can’t approach her
Maybe I’m neither afraid nor scared to tell her
Emotions that build up and how I loved her
Maybe it’s not meant to be nor should I dare?

But the fact that I really like her a lot, I picture her always on my mind
Dreaming what it would be like to be with her, I wanna find
I need to know her and everything she likes…
Well thanks to my imagination and day dreaming, I’m contented
to sleep soundly with her on my thoughts

Sometimes I really wanna let time fly by
Then wait for tomorrow to arrive to see her smile
Her simple face that makes me fall easily
Her humor that she can only do freely

I always find myself thinking of her everyday
As to if she bewitch me with her simpleness
If only I can reach the courage to tell her
But before any word came’s out of my mouth,
the cat caught my tongue in verse

I really had a lot of chances making a move
I would really be happy if I can be her friend
But why??? I feel something’s stopping me….
Or just because I’m not that ready…

I wish I could be more brave and daring
I wish I could do and say everything
Then maybe just once I can prove to myself
That I can over come my fear for love and regret

Feelings Defined!

In the right time nor right place
Love blooms and grows with grace
To nurture it means commitment
Just like in school, you always do your assignments

If the love you believe failed to be the right one
And all tumbles down and felt like everything’s gone
Don’t lose hope and lose faith
Trust in it coz I know it will be great

Love is endless and unconditional
It’s always free and so natural
This is the definition of love
Even thou it hurts sometimes
Bear it and endure for it’s worth it

Thou love seems so hard to hold
Just relax and it will unfold
I been a hopelessly romantic person
Not to mention that I’m corny too

But what can I do it’s just me not pretending even if I’m blue
I tend to let other see that I’m always happy and care free
But little did they know
How depress sometimes I could be

So now as I try to remember
Every heart aches and in my eternal slumber
Each throb that had come to my life
Only you had been worth the time and love to do a double strife

I will always love you
Till my life is through
Till forever comes to an end
The feelings I felt will always stay and can never be bent

“ I found this old poem of mine since I was in High school hahaha!”

Beneath A Smile

I often heard, several times
Friends and relatives try to describe me
I’m a person that seems to have no worries
Always carefree that’s what they see

But little did they know
I’m trying to forget the deep shit I’m in
All the bad memory slowly shows
As I sit in my room doing nothing

Pain is already consuming me
Day by day a torment I must live with
I always work alone before
Depending on my self the world so cold

All my life I waited for a chance
To be someone that I may be
To stand alone I have glanced
Burdens and anguish all at once

Traveling from place to place
There’s no road that leads me home
People I see along the way I pity
I can’t help not until now

All I have is a Smile
That comforts me in my darkest hours
Trying to laugh at the problems I have
Trying to wish they would all go away…

Either my family sucks or I just been born like this
A destiny no one ever wanted
Broken family a first start
A big duh??!

There’s only one person that keeps me going
She’s all I have amidst all the insanity
Trying to hold back all the tears that might fall
To show I’m invincible that’s what I would be.

The Big Difference

Now that I have tasted having two at the same time
It’s becoming hard for me, to adjust…
In my lonely boring room that I have always stayed in
A lot has been changed, since I had encountered…

I may not be worthy anymore and I have been stained
To dance two with tango, which I cant truly deny
I feel so guilty and crushed at the same time
To have it all at once, is it too much to ask? Or not?

It’s like you had the taste of both heavens at the same time
And trying not to break the bond that has been made…
To reach the heart of that crossroad may be your decision
But you will experience it with too much anguish and confusion

So many questions will pop up inside your mind
So how was it? Will this be the same forever? Was it worth while?
Will I lose? What happens next? Etc….
This is a very critical moment and I must endure…
To stay this way in love with both persons a trial adjourns

Weighing the feelings that you had, the choosing and loosing
Who will be the one or can I have them both??? ~_~
It’s very wrong from the very start yet you pushed through
The consequence or payback might not be pretty so be ready

Chain

Things I though that wouldn’t happen is now starting
Fear clouded my judgment and now I did wrong
I only wish to make you smile…
When all I did was to make cry…

Moments that I have spent with you and the words we trade
Is now nothing but meaningless thoughts we create
And I feel sorry for my self being so stupid and so blind
With every thing we had left to rot in the corner of our minds

Trying to face each day being a MIME
And deceiving everyone with a single smile
I cannot show my real self and the rest…
For that I have lost being at my best

To find love again in this world I move in…
Its not what I expected, didn’t prepared for it
Now that it slowly FADING again…
In my remorse, like being trap in a den

I wanna express everything that I have in me
I wanna be the one who can make u see…
I can’t act as free as I can…
Coz I know the world would judge me then…