UnFOLD

To my surprise I have fallen for her
With just one glance, all has been clear
After that night I’ve met sin and faltered
To loose my self and control my feelings

It started from a small text message, one after the other…
Then this is me now with her in my arms
Day one was really an awkward start for the both of us…
I went to fetch her and we got lost

We took a small road trip and watch as everything unravels
The getting to know each other period shovels
Day by day as we understand how we tick
Becomes very uneasy with her being too bossy

I didn’t look for a boss but a lover a girlfriend
Days pass and it still the same drama no end
I wanna escape and run away from her being to clingy
Can find a away to ditch her that was my tendency

But one day I tried with all my might to tell her what I have
That I cannot cope with her needs felt being grabbed
I know I hurt her but I need to be honest with what I feel
Were not compatible that I felt abused being too kind…

Rewind the Time

As I look at the pictures that we have
A lot of meaning per scene that I grabbed
The smiles that made me feel at ease
The places which we share, our loving moments I was so pleased

Is now but memories left in the shelf
And has been forgotten when your love runs out, it can’t be helped
I wish I could have done more
To let you slip away, I should have been more careful

You lost the feelings you have for me
And now look at the mess you left in for me
I’m so miserable, is now what I have become
Can’t picture my self with out you “shouting”, can’t calm

What did I do to make you go?
I did every possible thing that I could have done, didn’t it show?
Am I not good enough? Maybe that’s the reason…
Now I wish that I could died, drinking poison…

The hurt was so extreme that I cannot bear to live
It’s like the end of my existence and the promises we keep…
Lost the meaning of everything, when I was replaced
The distance and time was the real case…

Evening Rush

Excited on what you might wear tonight
Can’t picture the dress you have describe
And as I saw you coming from the gates
I never seen you so beautiful, with so much grace

I was stunned by her and can’t believe…
That she was the lady that makes me naïve
Amidst the crowd you’re the only one that I can see
You made me see that there something more that I can be

The switch which I set to off mode has been turned on
As to which I was trying to suppress my feelings, holding on
I’m so bewitch by her charm that I can’t hardly sleep at night
The pictures we shared, I always gaze and hope to dream it tonight

We talk about love and everything I have
My mind was blown away, can take my eye off of her
Time really fly’s and I’m having so much fun
To be the person with her tonight, I feel like the sun

But after the occasion we have to leave…
To say our goodbyes and goodnight kiss
I wish that the time would really stop
Coz I know that it will never happen again…

UnVoiced

People in life have their own share of thoughts
But most likely it’s always from that special someone a lot
There came a time which I never have encountered
Actions and words, already clashing so blurred

A act and decision that she make shows everything
A path she took, and now I’m on it lingering
You might likely see that I’m so so so naïve
Well I don’t know, it’s what I feel and what I perceive

She said No, but I know, she suppressing, cant bare
She acts like she doesn’t really care
You may feel awkward at times she would just leave you behind
But deep inside her heart she wants to me mine

All I can do is ease her up on what she might choose in life
To be someone she can always have, and cannot go on strike
I know she wants me to be there in her solitude
By reading her moves, I can tell her mood

I knew that all my actions was in vain from the very start
But I know somehow, I melted her frozen heart
So now as I journey the path to reach her from the stars
I would really be glad to pursue and endure to make it this far.

Let Time Fly

The day moves more slowly than ever
I keep on waiting to see tomorrow, I think I’ll get a fever
I need to see her, even for just a moment
Just to relive the ache inside my chest

Why am I so attached to what I have feeling for her...?
As if I can’t get enough of what I already had
Sometimes I wish that we can be more than just friends
But I’m glad of having her as my special friend

To laugh and talk about things that we did
The days we spent and the words we said
But now, that I’m in a place where she placed me in
A place which has a limit and boundaries

I can only do little and watch her just go by…
My mind screams, that I could do better than that…
Sometimes I ask my self are you crazy or dumb
Acting and making decisions that makes it worst

But even if that crossed my mind, I really don’t care
As long as I express what I have, and let my actions tell
To be with her forever is what I ask of her
I hope I’m not asking too much for something in return.

Till the Day Come

Lying here on my bed feeling numb
Wondering how the weeks will reveal
As I watch the clock ticks like a bomb
I look around and ask my self am I real?

So many questions fill up my head
To answer them all at once, I don’t have a clue
The day is slowly moving and my arms are wide spread
Listening to the wind as it blows me in to the blue

Right now as the world is fast asleep
I’m here again to ask God why I was made.
Am I like a tree that would someday lose all of its leaves?
Or am I gonna be a saint that would never fade?

I haven’t done anything that has meaning to me
When will be the day that I shall understand?
Looking my self in to the mirror and watch as I see
The person that I become and all I withstand

Having a hard time to fall asleep with all this things on my mind
I can only remember why I wait for tomorrow to shine
Coz maybe I’m waiting for someone to make me unwind
Someone that might understand me and can make me align

Acquainted Love

You think you have not felt the love others gave
To share ones moment a time to live
But who am I to tell you this?
Just a friend and not your lover

I try to reach out, struggling cannot shout
The way I really feel, what I wanna say
It’s just like the wind that comes and goes
It fades away after I said every word

Day pass and you went away
To search for you I did in any possible way
Months pass your nowhere in sight
I’m so desperate, can let go of the light

Then I found you! My heart jumps and my mind screams!
The day that I been waiting had happened
I thought that it was just a dream!
No time to waste, her number, her place, we’re in haste!

We date and jam, the night was still young
I thought that this will be the beginning
I really expected to be a part of you before we depart
We talk, walk, dance, and sing, I was having the time of my life

But tears fall last night as I heard you happy with someone else
That I could never be the one you cared the most
I wish I tried harder before she went away
All the time, the pain, and faith was neglected

Now here I am feeling sorry for my self
Swallowed by depress wanting to see death on my door step
And each heart ache brings me closer to the end
I’m still happy that you were my friend

"another old poem of mine in my high school days"

Precious

Her long black hair and gentle smile
I can’t explain how I feel when she passes by
Lost for words and stand like a statue
Stealing glances and picture perfect view

I don’t know why I can’t approach her
Maybe I’m neither afraid nor scared to tell her
Emotions that build up and how I loved her
Maybe it’s not meant to be nor should I dare?

But the fact that I really like her a lot, I picture her always on my mind
Dreaming what it would be like to be with her, I wanna find
I need to know her and everything she likes…
Well thanks to my imagination and day dreaming, I’m contented
to sleep soundly with her on my thoughts

Sometimes I really wanna let time fly by
Then wait for tomorrow to arrive to see her smile
Her simple face that makes me fall easily
Her humor that she can only do freely

I always find myself thinking of her everyday
As to if she bewitch me with her simpleness
If only I can reach the courage to tell her
But before any word came’s out of my mouth,
the cat caught my tongue in verse

I really had a lot of chances making a move
I would really be happy if I can be her friend
But why??? I feel something’s stopping me….
Or just because I’m not that ready…

I wish I could be more brave and daring
I wish I could do and say everything
Then maybe just once I can prove to myself
That I can over come my fear for love and regret

Feelings Defined!

In the right time nor right place
Love blooms and grows with grace
To nurture it means commitment
Just like in school, you always do your assignments

If the love you believe failed to be the right one
And all tumbles down and felt like everything’s gone
Don’t lose hope and lose faith
Trust in it coz I know it will be great

Love is endless and unconditional
It’s always free and so natural
This is the definition of love
Even thou it hurts sometimes
Bear it and endure for it’s worth it

Thou love seems so hard to hold
Just relax and it will unfold
I been a hopelessly romantic person
Not to mention that I’m corny too

But what can I do it’s just me not pretending even if I’m blue
I tend to let other see that I’m always happy and care free
But little did they know
How depress sometimes I could be

So now as I try to remember
Every heart aches and in my eternal slumber
Each throb that had come to my life
Only you had been worth the time and love to do a double strife

I will always love you
Till my life is through
Till forever comes to an end
The feelings I felt will always stay and can never be bent

“ I found this old poem of mine since I was in High school hahaha!”

Beneath A Smile

I often heard, several times
Friends and relatives try to describe me
I’m a person that seems to have no worries
Always carefree that’s what they see

But little did they know
I’m trying to forget the deep shit I’m in
All the bad memory slowly shows
As I sit in my room doing nothing

Pain is already consuming me
Day by day a torment I must live with
I always work alone before
Depending on my self the world so cold

All my life I waited for a chance
To be someone that I may be
To stand alone I have glanced
Burdens and anguish all at once

Traveling from place to place
There’s no road that leads me home
People I see along the way I pity
I can’t help not until now

All I have is a Smile
That comforts me in my darkest hours
Trying to laugh at the problems I have
Trying to wish they would all go away…

Either my family sucks or I just been born like this
A destiny no one ever wanted
Broken family a first start
A big duh??!

There’s only one person that keeps me going
She’s all I have amidst all the insanity
Trying to hold back all the tears that might fall
To show I’m invincible that’s what I would be.

The Big Difference

Now that I have tasted having two at the same time
It’s becoming hard for me, to adjust…
In my lonely boring room that I have always stayed in
A lot has been changed, since I had encountered…

I may not be worthy anymore and I have been stained
To dance two with tango, which I cant truly deny
I feel so guilty and crushed at the same time
To have it all at once, is it too much to ask? Or not?

It’s like you had the taste of both heavens at the same time
And trying not to break the bond that has been made…
To reach the heart of that crossroad may be your decision
But you will experience it with too much anguish and confusion

So many questions will pop up inside your mind
So how was it? Will this be the same forever? Was it worth while?
Will I lose? What happens next? Etc….
This is a very critical moment and I must endure…
To stay this way in love with both persons a trial adjourns

Weighing the feelings that you had, the choosing and loosing
Who will be the one or can I have them both??? ~_~
It’s very wrong from the very start yet you pushed through
The consequence or payback might not be pretty so be ready

Chain

Things I though that wouldn’t happen is now starting
Fear clouded my judgment and now I did wrong
I only wish to make you smile…
When all I did was to make cry…

Moments that I have spent with you and the words we trade
Is now nothing but meaningless thoughts we create
And I feel sorry for my self being so stupid and so blind
With every thing we had left to rot in the corner of our minds

Trying to face each day being a MIME
And deceiving everyone with a single smile
I cannot show my real self and the rest…
For that I have lost being at my best

To find love again in this world I move in…
Its not what I expected, didn’t prepared for it
Now that it slowly FADING again…
In my remorse, like being trap in a den

I wanna express everything that I have in me
I wanna be the one who can make u see…
I can’t act as free as I can…
Coz I know the world would judge me then…