My Unexpected Friend

I found someone whom I guess made an impression on me
The feelings I get when we talk feels so lively
Never thought that I would knew her, when we first talked
She was a bit feisty and I thought I was in trouble…

I didn’t knew that she was gonna be so cautious
Didn’t expect that I would also be dazzle with her as well
Got to know each other a little better with a simple hi and hello’s
Then after that, we constantly chit chat about our usual days

Topics, anything under the sun, seems so endless
We laugh our hearts out like we were the only two crazy people in the world
We got to knew a bit of each other's personality
Which I guess was great to understand each other more completely

Days pass and its Christmas eve!
Haven’t been talking because of some occasions and gatherings
I suddenly remembered that I have not been in touch with her
I miss the things we talk about and how our days were

So still I made it to a point to greet her on Christmas eve
Even thou she’s not around hehehe!
And now it’s almost the end of the year, I thought it would be clear
That the person I knew is the person I will remember forever.

The Turmoil In me

As the day consume me with anxiety
I saw the future flew outside the window
The memories we share just been buried lately
As the whole of my existence stop its flow

The hours seems so long to wait
The seconds and minutes feel like forever
When all the things had been said and done, it must be faith
Expecting that all might fall in the right place, that wasn’t clever

I didn’t saw it coming, hit me head on and crush so hard!
That I was still in a trance that I was still living the dream
Never expected to be like this, and I lost my thrump card
I had nothing more in me, I been empty and lost the reward

As my head moves and look s up in the sky
I see the same sky that I had been with for so long
But now the sky I did touch and hold before just flied
Out of my grasp and cannot have it anymore…

To this it was my fault, I made mistakes and now it’s catching up
May be karma or I have been to easy go luck in my life
A careless brat that didn’t cared enough for the future
And now it eats me inside out, that I guess even I cannot shout!

Trying to escape Love

I found this girl, sweet and a bit kind…
She’s sometimes feisty and sometimes too mild…
I thought that I would enjoy being with her
So we got our schedules all mixed up in a blur

Day goes by and I found her to be funny
She makes me smile and she wants me as her honey
To that I was surprise can’t think fast
I agreed and the rest came tumbling down in a blast

The first few days was fun and I enjoyed a lot
But my conscience struck and it made a dot
That I know someday I will leave her
I can’t promise to be here forever

As this thoughts cross my mind I ask my self…
Will I stop and forget her like a book in a shelf
Or will I continue to fool her that I’m gonna be here…
In this dilemma of choice, its so unclear

That this is not right, I fallen to the light
She caught me off guard when we become one…
Now these anxiety craws in the back of my mind
Shall we split? Can’t find the reason to go, I’m too kind…

A Part Time Lover

As to this may seem not fair
To be a person with two partners to care
When all that happen in just a single night
Can’t be prolong with just a single fight.

It’s really fun and exciting from the start
The dating and flirting the throbbing of the heart
Things that makes it more interesting
Is that you found someone that can be so daring.

First things first in this situation
Plan every single move to evade deception
Because you may never know what she has in mind?
That it might be something you might find…

In the game of love you had been betting on…
Feeling and emotions to gamble with a single frown
This circumstance has always a bad ending
But it’s up to you to handle this bidding.

If a time comes that you would be found out
You better be prepared for the dialogues to mount
Complications arises when a dilemma is met
The choosing and loosing will be set.

The Sniper that cannot Snipe...

To which I still believe in the day of change
That you would want me like I want you
But I hope too much again, too far out of my range
To snipe the target I missed, change location is what I must do

This is the way that I should follow now
To kill this feeling inside me and make it stop
To strike or to be struke down first is now my vow
I will not make the same mistake! Or else I will drop…

I must fight now with all I have to win this battle
Do almost everything to survive this faction
Assuming the enemy’s strength and weakness would make it rattle
That this is my only strategy in war tactics to remove obstructions

A vantage point to which I must carry out my plans
That this is my decision and no room for mistakes
But if I succeed, will I be happy or sad?
If strike you down will I be contented or would be hurt?

Still I’m in this dilemma, to fall back or to withdraw
I act alone by the way; don’t wanna see anyone go down because of me
If I stick to the plans I made what happens next?
I would be heartless if I commence my mission of killing you inside my heart.

Crush

I wished on a falling star…
I Wanna be right where you are
You set my world on fire
Babe I got a crush on you!

I need you please don’t go far
Can't you see how right we are?
We should be together
That’s what my heart says

Knowing it might seem strange...
Love came over me
Feeling the luck has changed
I feel happy whenever I’m with you

I’m afraid to tell you this…
I don’t want to scare or mislead you
But I need to make you understand
Do you want me, like I want you?

So if you feel the way I do
Would you take me beside you?
If you will, I can be with you forever
Only you can leave me if you want to…

I had lived long enough, on someone else’s shadow
In this cold world, where dreams are few
Now I had found you, I want you…
Is it to much to ask for?

Special Feeling

It’s something that makes your heart beat fast
The feeling so intense it’s almost a blast!
To be with someone you love, a fulfillment achieved
Like a Contentment or an ache that has been relived

I wasn’t really expecting this
But I guess it cannot be help, so please…
I wanna be with you everyday
And tell you the words I have kept and holding on to say

You made me feel my worth and opened my eyes
You showed me a different world, where I haven’t been so wise
How can I not think of you when I always do?
That you are my addiction, still I guess you do not have a clue

I’ll be here when you need me, I will never leave
But if I fail in some of your test, I’m only human I bleed
Still you have been someone that I adore
And haven’t been my self lately, unlike before

Now as this poem express exactly how I feel
Trying to find the right words to see that I’m real
You made me someone I haven’t imagine beyond what I knew
A personality that didn’t grow and was just chewed

Thanks for being so sweet and kind
That you’re so irresistible that I don’t really mind ^_^
I see a lot of things right now, but I cannot catch them all
But when I’m with you, it really doesn’t matter at all…

My Addiction

A part of me that hasn’t been found yet
Is now what I see in front of me…
I never knew that it was you
You are the missing part I was looking for…

Now as I look forward to each day
How I wish to have you with me
How I longed to hear and see, your smile, your laughter
The words that only you can say, that leaves a mark on my head

I cannot believe that I have you now
That I’m luckiest guy to be with you tonight
That I think I was still dreaming…
That is this really true? I keep on asking my self

As the night moves on, I don’t wanna part
And the moments we share, still lingers in my heart
I cannot forget the things we have in common
That hey, I have found my better half!

I wish I could have known you before
So that I have been a whole, you were my core!
Now I’m craving to be with you, I try to hide it but it really shows
I’m not good at hiding things so I guess you already know…

Wall of Pride

Placing your self in a area where no one can reach you
You made it hard for me to break in, a hard work to do
A test I must pass in order to have you
I have loved every thing you are, so please love me too?

I have come to an argument with my self
To which I still have conflict with….
This has always been a hard thing to fix but it can’t be helped
As this dilemma keeps on going can’t feel the beat

To decipher this will take centuries to fulfill….
Why do we have pride when we can all be humble?
Is this very hard to do that we cannot agree?
If no one gives way, then deals won’t be met right?

Shall this be like this forever that it has not changed a bit?
Where to as the point of meaning has been reverted
That the logical answer has been ignored
And the feeling of what you believed in has tilt

But if you still feel remorse, it’s not too late
To fix the damage that has been made
And the people affected will see the goodness in you
That it never hurts to show a little affection to the people who love you…

I have to let go…..

Myself I always try to fight everyday
That I should be better off without you
Is this what I really want? And is this how I should play?
To be someone else and forget, is what I must do

I cannot act like a foolish child
Asking to loved by a person that didn’t cared enough
As to which made my life miserable
And reset my mindset to off set

I wasn’t thinking back then…
And was I given a love potion that I can’t resist her charm?
That all I can see is her and think off?
Was this a real deal or just a glitch in my brain?

I guess I was brain washed or something…
To have fallen head over heels
To begged to be love?
And the wrong decisions I made O_O

This was so not me that I change my personality
That when I was someone else I can’t recall
That the time was wasted and efforts was in vain
I made a fool out of myself and myself only to blame!

Please come back with me...

A tear drop falls from the corner of my eye
Drops to the floor as I realize
The pain and reality that when through
As fate may have it I have always loved you…

Thoughts of you linger in my heart and soul
You change my life, I can’t let go
The passion remains, I can’t forget
Let me hold you once more…

Does every beginning have an end?
Does love run out or we all just pretend?
Is happiness a smile or broken frown?
Does my life make sense when you are not around?

The pain of losing you…
Can only be compared to no other pain I’ll ever feel
For to love you is to let go…
Will you come back? Guess I’ll never know.

Does the sun really sleeps at the end of each day?
Or does another one begins in a world so far away?
Is laughter a cry just aching to scream?
What really comes true, at the end of a dream?

Love comes and goes like the night
Disappears faster if you hold on too tight
So try to savor each loving moment
Don’t take thing for granted, just count on it.

To hold you once more would be my mission
To kiss and love you would be that decision
So many tears flown between us
Why can we find a love we can trust?

Is there life without you I ask my self?
Is love worth the pain or just memories on a shelf?
As you go to a new life, I’ll go with mine…
It was fun while it lasted, the time of my life.

My Broken Dream...

Once I pictured, see myself with you someday
With no worries and we are happy together
That was my simple dream, that I can say…
A fantasy I made, that has been faltered

I still wish my dream with you will come true
And the love we felt will meet each other
But I guess the dream is over, and I don’t have a clue
You left me all of a sudden with nothing to look further

As this days pass without you in my life, I realize...
That I need you more and more each day
How I wish to hold you in my arms, and mesmerize
That I fallen for you so hard, and I’ll be here waiting

If ever you had a change of heart, please? comeback...
You can always have me whenever you want…
I imagined that you would love me in the end
And now as I face each day… I see my broken dreams…

Waiting...

As I look as far as my eyes can see out side my window
I start to wonder, if ever you still think of me
My heart keeps on calling you, doesn’t it show?
When will you give me another chance so you would see…

Why are you so cold and vain when it comes to love?
I tried to endure the pain you gave me to prove myself
I struggle to show you and gave it with all I have
But still I’m only human and I’m not perfect

I admit that I make mistakes
And the false move I make, made you go away
I’m almost at my limit and there’s a lot at stake
Maybe that’s how you want me to see your way…

Even if you’re angry or disappointed, you felt the love I had
That the love I planted in you would grow…
That one day I pray you would come back
And things will be normal again, coz you took a part of me…

HATE!

Guess I found freedom at last…
To be my self again that I have asked
I think I have relived my self from a certain burden
That shouldn’t be there from the very start

You just made my life complicated that it really sucks
I was the FOOL! Right…. And I played that part too long
And now you left me and gave me freedom
I would not try to chase you anymore!

This now I swore that never you will ever be
In my heart that you just tormented day and night
I never hated this much before
Especially to a person I loved once….

I never imagine that I was so stupid that I can’t awake from it
I realize that I was being to martyr to that person
I was willing to give up anything I work for years
I was so DUMB to think that FOOLISHNESS

What was I thinking???
I was so blinded that I can’t see the light
It really hit me hard on the face that I really need to give it up
That I was so reckless, but now I learn from my mistake!

Move on Move on!!!

I ask my self is it alright?
Can you handle it?
Have you set your heart?
Can you ignore what you really feel?

I need to get through this, for pain it only brings
I never felt so hurt like this in my entire life!
I wish I never met her and fallen
Then maybe I wouldn’t be so mocked!

Never in my life have I experienced this agony
I can’t even sleep at night like I use too
You still cloud my mind and my thoughts
That I wish to have amnesia just to forget you!

It’s so hard to forget someone you loved before
And it’s hard to see them with out you in the picture
Maybe it's better this way, I tell my self
For I love too much that I didn’t save any for myself

I sacrifice my time my love my devotions
To the person that is very hard to reach from the very start
Why have I fallen in love with you??? That I hate you now!
Why did you change, in a blink of an eye you are someone else!

Sorry I don't know

I thought that you still don’t mind me
You still gave me the same treatment
You always make me wonder why???
But since I sense something wrong I was clueless

I’m sorry if I left or leave you
I don’t mean to be like that….
I was so used of you leaving me behind
I feel like you don’t need me that I should go…

You know that I would do anything
Even if you just say it I’ll make it happen
I’m sorry if I made you hanging
I’m sorry if I wasn’t there….

You could have told me to stay and I would
You always know I’ll obey what ever you ask of me
So why are so mad at me? I love you so much didn’t I?
I’m just here for you and waiting for you to love me back

I’m not asking anything from you…
I just want to be with you all day if you would allow it
You never heard me complain…
I just shut my mouth co’z I don’t want to force myself to you

You already broke my heart several times and I’m still here….
What more could you ask out of me…
Loving you and understanding you I did
But have you tried to understand me???

I did every possible thing that I know that would win your heart
But you just hate me instead of loving me….
I try to endure the pain you gave me every time you leave me
I just tell my self that she wants it that way and don’t force it….

You had me holding back to all I should have done to love you more
I know you love me too but when I’m with you, you just ignore me
What would you think if you were in my place...?
How would you move in to me if you know you just want me as a friend?

But even thou I’m like this I have loved you always
You never leave my mind and I’m trying to make it easier for you
I don’t want to be a burden to you, that’s what I’m doing….
But for you to be angry at me is too much, that you almost killed me….

Mile's Away.....

Days has been so awkward
When you have exasperated your self
It has been so dull and lonely walking in this boulevard
That I wish that I can have that someone back for my self

I’m missing you so much
And that I’m so used to being with you before
I feel so paranoid that I miss your touch
I long to hear your voice that never makes me bored

I haven’t been my self lately
Been doing some stuff just to forget this anxiety
But when night falls and I’m about to go to sleep
I can’t stop my self from thinking of you…

It’s complicated that I can’t handle this thoughts
That sometimes it makes me wonder all night long…
A hard time sleeping just having you around in my mind
The imagination starts to unfold……

I never felt so lonely, ever since you went away
The days had been so hard to get thru, falling back to you
So now in this lingering feeling of you in me, I look and find
That I must be with you no matter what the odds are…

Maybe SomeDay....

As I try to picture you in my mind
A lot of flash back I find
You have always flooded my thoughts
I can’t seem to forget you

Every minute I always find my self dreaming
That one day you would be mine
That I would be the luckiest man
To have you I cannot deny

I fallen for you that it so obvious
I try to keep it to my self but to no avail
I always follow my heart and always lead me to you
That I cannot control…

Maybe this feelings my softer side
I don’t have anything nor pride when I love
All I have is my heart that I can offer
That I hope you would accept

I’m just an ordinary guy with no super powers
Powers that could make you fall in love to me;
My love bloomed when I found you
The only reason I can find to be with you…

Uncertainties

I hate feeling, this factor
To which makes me unsure of what’s gonna happen
Going to life as we call it, climbing each floor
Steps that needs to be taken along and be a man

In my life, this might be my greatest challenge
That I must endure and perceive to reach a certain goal
I really hate to feel this paranoia that needs to avenge
Sometimes that I can’t relax and stop thinking about it and stroll

But I can’t, because it really comes with no warning
There’s no announcement and sign…
Life is full of surprises that it can take you up or down
That every event can change your everyday life

Only confusion will make you unease on everything
And amidst that choice, is that you can still be calm
Don’t be pressured to the events that might took place
Be ready for whatever it may be

You always need a clear head to think things over
And always weigh the circumstances of both parties
But false decision can be made in desperate times
When there is a clouded area in your mind.

Lazy....

I feel bored and uneasy
To my surprise I was blinded already
I don’t want to look anymore
My life a waste I see everyday

Maybe because I have been so burnt out
I have no more reason left in me to go on
All I wanna do is stay and rot in this cell
As I see all the things change one by one

My mind still a twist that can’t be fix
A lot of stuff that I came across which I cannot foresee
I always picture myself in a place which I had made
But to my evaluations it’s still beginning

Lost power to love once more
And wanting to be useless the whole day
I don’t care anymore if I live or die
But still I’m thankful to be alive

Looking For Love

As I journey my way to finding it
Still the same old feeling remains in me
The memories which I hold in me
Will now be erased one by one to be replaced with new ones

Another self continuation of making me know that I exist
To prove my self that I can love once more
The passion and pain I have endured
The hurt that hold me back into my slumber

Myself again I see with hope in my heart
Towards that same someone worth while
I know it’s too soon again
But this I must try and never give up on it

If I let pain consume me with hatred
Nothing will become of me if I let it be
Thou it still hurt sometimes I have to be strong
For that it would help me move on…

Unreachable

A shimmering light I found in the dark
That I thought would be the way out…
The light was so far away that it was impossible to reach
But you have no choice but to pursue it

As you tried as hard as you can to reach
It takes a bigger leap upon arriving to its nearest area
The hope you had will shatter a bit
Feeling of a never ending agony and tiredness

When you gave all you got and still no reward
That everything was lost, thou you tried so hard
This is what I had never expected
Not until I reach this point

Feeling of rejection and uncertainties
The drama of lost and defeat
When you came to the point that it’s useless
Still you tried and you got nothing to lose but time.

Now that you knew that it was worthless
Will you still continue or make a new way?
This might be a turning of events
As to which you will see the fallacies in life.

Anxious

I may not know what the future hold
I have been aloft and I let the wave carry me away
Time passes quickly and I’m growing old
Sitting all day waiting for nothing, and now I’m afraid

It’s ticking like a bomb waiting to explode
What must I do to change the path I’m walking too?
A road with uncertainties and failures
To which we all must strive to overcome it

We have all tried to hide our true selves
To defend our ego’s from being hurt and crushed
I cannot stop my self from thinking ahead
To which I’m planning a safe route to avoid death

Why are you so uneasy to your way of living?
When all you got to do is to fix your life
You should learn what’s the best things in life
Then pursue it with no hesitations to understand why you were made.

The Big Lie

I guess I got what I was asking for
I’m not sure if I’m ready for this call
I have been wondering in the place of anxiety
Guess I was paranoid to let it be

I think I’m dumb when I already have the chance to prevent it
But still I have to let her know, what is going on…
I really did it this time…
And I know that the consequence is hard like a crime

It’s not good to fool the one you love
It’s not good if I let it go wild and shove
I guess this is the only way I can let her see
What I have done so that I can be free

My conscience keeps on hunting me down
To break free from it as I always wanted
Now that she knows it
All I can do is wait for her judgment…

As I Let Go

Days that told the story of my life
Has now been told today to be know how I strive
My actions was not a measure, to all the mistakes I made
But it’s a lesson that I must learn that will never fade

So now as I replace the broken pieces
I try not to cry and hope to remove the pain, release
That it was not meant to be, of what you have thought
That the dream will never come true and you sought

As this day ends with a frail on my face
I cannot hide that I’m hurting even thou I did not embrace
I set you free to the world I cannot change
When I tried to give my all not asking for anything in exchange

You didn’t treat me well that I hurt time and time
The pain I try to hide and never let it show like a mime
As this went on I cannot hold it anymore
I lost the patience I had and all drops to the floor…

Now as I look at my self on what had happened
I try to face my day with no more anxiety, let it end
My hopes and plans that I imagined slowly tumbles
Like the future you made has gone into crumbles.

Wishing You Were Here....

A word longing for someone of importance
To hold and touch you once more in an instance
Dreaming of how to dream of you here in my arms
I’m missing you, I wanna feel you charm

I’m so used in living with you before
Spending all day long, being with you I adore
The happiness you bring when you are near
My self I cannot control, to feel you in my arms so dear

But now you went away, set distance from where your heart is
I’m still holding on to that tender kisses
I need you here and now, my agonies at night…
To imagine your face your smiles, I take flight

To fly to where you are, is what I’m hopping for…
For you to accept me once again, on that I would swore!
That in every breath I take, it’s all because of you
My life has no meaning if you are not mine, that is true!

And now as I start my day without you here with me
The incompleteness of my existence, the feeling of not living, like a dying tree
Only you can bring back the light that has been removed in my life
The only thing that would make me alive…

The Day I Met You

The day i saw your face i had no clue
To my surprise you change my point of view
I have no idea that one day i was already falling
I t so fast that i cannot stop it from showing

I felt that i become somebody new
That i was now asking my self why i was yearning for you...
Why was my head keeps on repeating your name
And the pictures we shared i can stop but look at the frame

Up to now i cannot stop myself from glancing at you
I still think of you before i go to sleep
The fact that i loved you makes it hard to forget you
May be i really wanna be with you, all the time to keep

I maybe no one special in your life
I may not be the person that leaves a throb in you heart
But i’ll always be here when ever you feel to be with me
I'll prove that ill stay even if you go away.

Lossing my life

My thoughts are now filled with uncertainties
A lot of doubt and fear halted my abilities
This overwhelmed me, swallowed to grime
For this I’m nothing, and worthless at the same time.

Waking up each day feels like a drag…
Knowing that something is gone or missing in shag
I find it now difficult to reach you in this state
I feel down and anxiety has eaten me down to its plate.

Can’t seem to fix my self when I’m in public
Lost my will to strive, no more vision to seek
I lost the inspiration I had, and my will…
I just wanna stay in my room and overdose with sleeping pills.

For that I find comfort and hope that this would mend
Sometimes I wish not to wake up and see it all end
Maybe it’s better that way?
The pain will stop and the anxiety might sway.

My Stupid Mistake!

The things I’ve done to make you cry
The things I said and all the lies
All still echoes in my head
And all the words you have said

I was the stupid guy that missed his girl
Now look at what the pain brought with a hurl
I can’t find the right words to say
All I can do now is pray…

To my cravings, I tried to fight
To stay away from another love, because it’s not right…
I made a boundary but I guess it was too late
Move out away from the girl that resembles her.

Now I can only wish for her forgiveness
Because I didn’t had the courage to control my self
I acted foolish and tried to feel my self in her arms again
The pictures we had that resembles her.

I’m sorry if I felt the need of your touch
I’m sorry for being careless and reckless in everything I do
I was so stubborn to realize that she was not you…
That I thought I have you back with me…

I missed you so much that I wanna see you everyday
I missed your smiles and the kisses you gave
I love you so much even if you don’t believe me
My heart found its home with you

Now I can’t sleep tonight
For I have the feeling of losing you now…
I was so stupid to make those things
And now I see you going far away than ever…

I know it’s hard to forgive me with what I’ve done
I was not expecting you to take me back again
I’m only human and I’m not perfect
I have my own limits when it reaches it peak.

Caught Up!

The day was wrong and the timing was bad
When all problems and hidden agendas get out of hand
I already foreseen that this would happen
And I really wanted to be found out and let it began.

As my days really got so down and unpleasant
Things has taken a big turn again with what I didn’t want
As my friend always say, that when the wheels of life turn
Today you’re maybe above then the next thing you’re down to burn.

As this goes on with more burdens to carry at my back
I only wish that it would get lighter and get on the right track
Making my way out to anxiety and the dilemmas I choose
It’s only a matter of time when I run out of juice.

This has been my weakness, to make it to a point of being caught
The conscience I take with each wrong thing I bought
Making my self open and waiting to be off guard
Because I know that this is the right thing, but it’s hard…

Now that things are beginning to tumble down, one by one
I hope I can still catch them all one by one
If I can’t catch it all, I’ll just choose the things that are most important…
Things I hold dear in my heart, and let all fall, but still I don’t want.

My Girl

She’s the first person to come into your mind
You try to search everywhere but you can’t find
For only she knows what is best for you…
And then you find your self trying to guess what she feels for you

Her voice touches your soul
Her touch makes you out of control
I think she bewitch me, I remind my self sometimes
But no matter how hard you try, time just seems to fly

So in every wrong move I make, she’s still the one
In my heart forever, she will never fade…
I know I hurt her once before…
So now I’ll do everything to make it up for all

For all the mistakes I did
And the harsh words I said
Never ever that will happen again
Even thou hope is in vain

I promise to promise what ever happens
As long as I live. I’ll cherish you for ever
I won’t make the same mistake
And I’ll show you my true self not fake

For now I truly understand
That you always have always given me your all
And now I know that you really love me so
How I wish that you would never ever go…

As the night goes on it's usual way
This is what I always pray
That this feeling for you will never fade
And thank God that he has given you to me and always keep you safe

And here in my moment of solitude
I try to reflect to all of my attitudes
On how to convince her, that what I say is true
That when she doubts me I feel so blue

I know you love me so much
That’s why I'm so touched
I’ll give everything that you would ever need
Like a plant that started from a seed

I love you so much, this words I give to you when ever we depart
And every time you think of me, you’re always in my heart
I wanna be by your side all day and night
Till the sun sets and the moon and the stars start to play tonight

And now as I close my eyes
I see you and me, then I realize
You’re always with me even when I sleep
I can see a vision of us together happy and free.

Undecided

Yesterday I tried to wait patiently for her
It took me forever upon waiting
Hope was almost lost co’z I really don’t know if she’s there
Then out of the blue she came along…

I was still lost for words and I don’t know what to say or do
I just wanna see her, maybe that's the truth…
It took me a lot of courage to approach her that I can’t speak her name
when I was behind her.
Then I called out her name calmly, she was so surprise to see me there.

I saw in her eyes that she missed me…
I ask for forgiveness and she just smiled at me
I was really unsure of what is going on
All I know is that I love her so much that I can’t think straight

I can see that she’s holding back towards her feelings for me
I know I hurt her so much that I was so selfish
I said harsh words to her that I can’t remember why?
May be I was really trying to break away…

I did broke the bond between us
Tried to be strong, but it really hurt a lot
Made my self busy but to no avail, tears fall in everything I do
Co’z I really want her badly, that it’s very wrong from the very start

So here I am so unsure of what will happen next
I can only wish that she would still be the same
I maybe pathetic but I can’t stop my self from making a way to see her
All I can do now is to wait and see, what the future holds let it unfold…

In my Solitude

I found my self, as always alone again
When I thought I found what I’m looking for
My mind clouded with the pain I’m having
My heart screams in pain co’z its hurting,

I was so used to waking up in the morning just to see you
Now I see my self craving for her even more
As I sit at the bench we used to date
I can still picture her smiles in front of my face.

Why can’t she let me into her heart?
Why is she afraid of loving me?
When will I have the courage to see her again?
Worst questions that crosses my mind…

My life’s a tragedy as what it might be…
A failure as what I can see
The best thing I can do is moving on
For that, the only thing that would stop me from holding on.

Burned Out

I guess when I dream the dream…
I have no intentions of waking up
To my surprise, the fantasy become reality
And you were gone when I opened my eyes

I really expected too much that it was so real to me
In my case, I tried to avoid it
To break away from you, is what I wanna do
For I know that I’m not worthy of you.

I have lied to her and to my self
Telling me to stop because it’s wrong
I know that I loved her even thou there’s a lot of issues
I ask myself that hey!? The girls not right for you, right?

There are times that I would just ignore her defects
Maybe that’s why they call love blind
I really have no reasons to fall in love with her
Guess I was just attracted to her being too innocent

But why? When I already have freedom
That I can still feel loneliness inside of me
The fact that I’m hurting even thou I want to let go of her
I did fall in love with her, because why can’t I stop my self from crying

Why do I feel miserable even that I did the right thing?
The feelings that I have for her has not vanished
I’m really having a hard time controlling myself
Because I know I have lost her forever

In my solitude I can still picture the two of us even before I go to sleep
I maybe naïve or stupid that I can’t see the truth
Now I’m lost with out her, and longing her to be with me
I found inspiration and joy and a little bit of love from her

As I tell my life again in this pages of my note book I cry…
The tears of losing someone dear to me
The time that runs without remorse
The memories left behind the corner of my mind

I wonder what it would be like if I would become her lover
I guess it would be great to be loved by her
In a faceless crowd I pour out myself
As I define the exact feelings I can find…

Moving On

I woke up today like every other day
I look around and didn’t see your face
I was wondering if I have forgotten it, I pray
I guess it’s still there, I’m afraid…

Thou I drank hard and partied with friends and get high
It always goes back to reality that you’re gone now
Still I can’t forget the day that you said good bye
I cried hard and scream in agony to my surprise how?

When all I did was to love you and be with you
Then you become uneasy that you have to let me go
Was I being to clingy or was I too caring? I don’t know what to do
I given my all and my feelings and actions did show.

You said you love me, so why do have to leave?
Can you just throw it all away now that I can’t bear it to see?
I’m having a hard time understanding why, please don’t leave?
My hearts almost at tilt in trying to make you stay.

Now that you’re gone and I’m here left alone
It brings a lot of memories when time has flown
The days we shared and everything else
Is gonna be forgotten like a cloud, that travels aimlessly.

When Regret comes into Play

To all the people that experienced the dilemma of loving
We always ask why do we have to let our heart win over our mind?
Are we not thinking clearly when we show affection?
Does the heart blind our mind to think straight?

The day again starts with a hole in your heart
That you have given up the person you have loved before
Is it really that easy to give up the love you shared?
Was it not a regret to go on your separate ways?

Another unequal decision that has been made, only to hurt each other
Why do we like to hurt when all we can do is love?
Is there something to it that makes it unavoidable?
You don’t realize that you only made each other hate one another.

Then the pain of leaving and losing
The pain of falling in and out of love
The mistakes that haven’t been corrected before anything else
Will always end to give you more suffering along the way.

Can you understand what I’m telling you?
Maybe not…. People now a days are to egoistic and the pride consumes it all
It never hurts to be humble and try to give your selves a chance
That love is pain and joy at the same time when you really love at all.

Ache of a Broken Heart

The pain of losing someone you love is unbearable
All you can think of is how you could have prevent it
Asking your self what has happened?
Then in a blink of an eye everything’s gone.

I think I have to hate love and hate to fall in love
It only brings misery and makes my life unorganized
My heart screams like it was crush and trampled
That the pain I experience was so indescribable.

I maybe crazy when I fall in love, maybe that’s the problem
I take things seriously, because I don’t want to hurt the person I love
But why…. When all has been said and done, do you have to go?
Why do you have to refuse my love when I can be that someone you need?

I guess I was so assuming of everything I do and I expected too much…
That's why maybe I fallen hard and solid to the floor with this anxiety
I don’t want to feel the feeling of hopelessness and uncertainty
I really don’t know where to start and find my way back to the road.

I wish I could remove this emotional barrier that surrounds me
To be numb is now what I’m asking for
To be heartless as I may describe it
For that can only pull me out of this place that I have fallen into.

Waterfalls of Tears

My life a mess again in my dark big room
Many has happened since today and the other day
Must love have to end with a single snap or boom?
Maybe I was so naive again to be in this spot to stay?

Agony as what it might seem, a never ending pain and tragedy
Already got me consumed with all I have left in me
A scene that I was not prepared to perform and lost my strategy
Amidst these feelings of helplessness I pity my self to be

Yearning, still waiting to what I call love to be shown by her
Years can only tell if it would happen or not, might as well be
You can only remove this hurt and remove me to suffer
Yelling out your name to rescue me and love me please…

Reasons for Actions

I’m not perfect and I’m only human
I have made mistakes and from that I try to make it right
I learned that if we feel something towards someone…
I know emotions take place to make you move to the light

Love can also make you move
Let it lead you and you will find happiness
Look even if it doesn’t show, just do the groove
Life my take you to places but never the less

Only you can choose the path you take
One must pass the test of time and faith as well
Once you failed, try again to see it with no more ache
Ounce of patience can help and will be your shell

Voice out once you gathered up your strength
Vain thou it might be, as long as you give it a shot
Victory may come in many aspects and length
Vest your self up for a blast and take your spot

You can only choose which and who you would love
You have given me something to hold on too, even it’s not that much
You make me fly with out wings like a dove
You given me a chance to show you how I love you so much.

When all I need is you...

Before I go to sleep I always pray that I have you with me
To see you here beside me and smell the scent of you hair
I need you so much that I want you to see
That I’m nothing with out you, if your not here

My days will be so blue and gray if I don’t have you
Like a painting with no color and doesn’t express any single thought
I’m afraid to be alone, it worries me a lot but you don’t have a clue
To what I’m feeling when you’re on your oath

I think that it’s just a dream that we would ever be
Lovers as what they call it or vise versa
Still a hopeless romantic I haven’t changed at all, maybe…
But as I go through this agony of not having you, like no bursa

The excruciating pain I feel every time I look at your picture
That what all we can be are just being mere friends
And we can never be what I always picture in my mind, so unsure…
Maybe this will change someday if I patiently wait till the end

So now as the madness ends tonight
My thoughts are filled with good memories that we had
Still wishing that I can have you someday as my girl, trying to fight faith
I’m still stuck in the friend zone, still I’m glad…

My Torments at Night

At night, there’s really a sad feeling in the air when you’re all alone
All seems quiet and the peaceful, but all fades when you remember
The bad things that happen and the harsh words you said
The summary of the day that went wrong because of a single joke

Everything was going into play
But when emotions take place, it crushes and it really pays
I don’t know if tomorrow you will still be the same…
I know I was mean but I need to let you understand my claim

It’s not that I want an answer right away
But an honest answer would be better to say
I was hopping to have a turning point in this situation
But it went right straight in the path that made it worst

Now my nights are more miserable as they have always been
I don’t know if I can take more of this…
I’m almost going crazy thinking about you
What have you done to me that I can’t get you off my mind?

And as this night goes on and on everyday
Will I ever have peace of mind that I would have you someday?
The dream I try to dream at night and every other night
Guess it’s up to fate to make it smooth for me as I seek my place in you heart.

AGONY!

It’s hard to love when it’s one sided
You got to have a lot of courage and strength
Becoming a martyr as what it might look like
A journey that again I travel after 9 years

When will this end and will I ever change?
Why is it when I fall in love with someone I give my all?
Where have all the things I learned gone too?
Was I not aware that it’s leading back to that path again?

Guess I still haven’t learned the lesson that I’m plunging in again
May be I should take it slow and don’t rush
Is love a feeling that makes you feel good?
And is love, love when someone loves you back?

I only wanted to be love back so much by the person I love
Guess love does not excludes anyone that falls in it
Love maybe something to wait and wish for?
As much as possible I don’t wanna be back in that place again

Will it be ok if I just don’t feel anything?
I really wish that I’m better at this field
When all has left and I’m still here
One sided love is giving and doesn’t wait for anything in return.

UnFOLD

To my surprise I have fallen for her
With just one glance, all has been clear
After that night I’ve met sin and faltered
To loose my self and control my feelings

It started from a small text message, one after the other…
Then this is me now with her in my arms
Day one was really an awkward start for the both of us…
I went to fetch her and we got lost

We took a small road trip and watch as everything unravels
The getting to know each other period shovels
Day by day as we understand how we tick
Becomes very uneasy with her being too bossy

I didn’t look for a boss but a lover a girlfriend
Days pass and it still the same drama no end
I wanna escape and run away from her being to clingy
Can find a away to ditch her that was my tendency

But one day I tried with all my might to tell her what I have
That I cannot cope with her needs felt being grabbed
I know I hurt her but I need to be honest with what I feel
Were not compatible that I felt abused being too kind…

Rewind the Time

As I look at the pictures that we have
A lot of meaning per scene that I grabbed
The smiles that made me feel at ease
The places which we share, our loving moments I was so pleased

Is now but memories left in the shelf
And has been forgotten when your love runs out, it can’t be helped
I wish I could have done more
To let you slip away, I should have been more careful

You lost the feelings you have for me
And now look at the mess you left in for me
I’m so miserable, is now what I have become
Can’t picture my self with out you “shouting”, can’t calm

What did I do to make you go?
I did every possible thing that I could have done, didn’t it show?
Am I not good enough? Maybe that’s the reason…
Now I wish that I could died, drinking poison…

The hurt was so extreme that I cannot bear to live
It’s like the end of my existence and the promises we keep…
Lost the meaning of everything, when I was replaced
The distance and time was the real case…

Evening Rush

Excited on what you might wear tonight
Can’t picture the dress you have describe
And as I saw you coming from the gates
I never seen you so beautiful, with so much grace

I was stunned by her and can’t believe…
That she was the lady that makes me naïve
Amidst the crowd you’re the only one that I can see
You made me see that there something more that I can be

The switch which I set to off mode has been turned on
As to which I was trying to suppress my feelings, holding on
I’m so bewitch by her charm that I can’t hardly sleep at night
The pictures we shared, I always gaze and hope to dream it tonight

We talk about love and everything I have
My mind was blown away, can take my eye off of her
Time really fly’s and I’m having so much fun
To be the person with her tonight, I feel like the sun

But after the occasion we have to leave…
To say our goodbyes and goodnight kiss
I wish that the time would really stop
Coz I know that it will never happen again…

UnVoiced

People in life have their own share of thoughts
But most likely it’s always from that special someone a lot
There came a time which I never have encountered
Actions and words, already clashing so blurred

A act and decision that she make shows everything
A path she took, and now I’m on it lingering
You might likely see that I’m so so so naïve
Well I don’t know, it’s what I feel and what I perceive

She said No, but I know, she suppressing, cant bare
She acts like she doesn’t really care
You may feel awkward at times she would just leave you behind
But deep inside her heart she wants to me mine

All I can do is ease her up on what she might choose in life
To be someone she can always have, and cannot go on strike
I know she wants me to be there in her solitude
By reading her moves, I can tell her mood

I knew that all my actions was in vain from the very start
But I know somehow, I melted her frozen heart
So now as I journey the path to reach her from the stars
I would really be glad to pursue and endure to make it this far.

Let Time Fly

The day moves more slowly than ever
I keep on waiting to see tomorrow, I think I’ll get a fever
I need to see her, even for just a moment
Just to relive the ache inside my chest

Why am I so attached to what I have feeling for her...?
As if I can’t get enough of what I already had
Sometimes I wish that we can be more than just friends
But I’m glad of having her as my special friend

To laugh and talk about things that we did
The days we spent and the words we said
But now, that I’m in a place where she placed me in
A place which has a limit and boundaries

I can only do little and watch her just go by…
My mind screams, that I could do better than that…
Sometimes I ask my self are you crazy or dumb
Acting and making decisions that makes it worst

But even if that crossed my mind, I really don’t care
As long as I express what I have, and let my actions tell
To be with her forever is what I ask of her
I hope I’m not asking too much for something in return.

Till the Day Come

Lying here on my bed feeling numb
Wondering how the weeks will reveal
As I watch the clock ticks like a bomb
I look around and ask my self am I real?

So many questions fill up my head
To answer them all at once, I don’t have a clue
The day is slowly moving and my arms are wide spread
Listening to the wind as it blows me in to the blue

Right now as the world is fast asleep
I’m here again to ask God why I was made.
Am I like a tree that would someday lose all of its leaves?
Or am I gonna be a saint that would never fade?

I haven’t done anything that has meaning to me
When will be the day that I shall understand?
Looking my self in to the mirror and watch as I see
The person that I become and all I withstand

Having a hard time to fall asleep with all this things on my mind
I can only remember why I wait for tomorrow to shine
Coz maybe I’m waiting for someone to make me unwind
Someone that might understand me and can make me align

Acquainted Love

You think you have not felt the love others gave
To share ones moment a time to live
But who am I to tell you this?
Just a friend and not your lover

I try to reach out, struggling cannot shout
The way I really feel, what I wanna say
It’s just like the wind that comes and goes
It fades away after I said every word

Day pass and you went away
To search for you I did in any possible way
Months pass your nowhere in sight
I’m so desperate, can let go of the light

Then I found you! My heart jumps and my mind screams!
The day that I been waiting had happened
I thought that it was just a dream!
No time to waste, her number, her place, we’re in haste!

We date and jam, the night was still young
I thought that this will be the beginning
I really expected to be a part of you before we depart
We talk, walk, dance, and sing, I was having the time of my life

But tears fall last night as I heard you happy with someone else
That I could never be the one you cared the most
I wish I tried harder before she went away
All the time, the pain, and faith was neglected

Now here I am feeling sorry for my self
Swallowed by depress wanting to see death on my door step
And each heart ache brings me closer to the end
I’m still happy that you were my friend

"another old poem of mine in my high school days"

Precious

Her long black hair and gentle smile
I can’t explain how I feel when she passes by
Lost for words and stand like a statue
Stealing glances and picture perfect view

I don’t know why I can’t approach her
Maybe I’m neither afraid nor scared to tell her
Emotions that build up and how I loved her
Maybe it’s not meant to be nor should I dare?

But the fact that I really like her a lot, I picture her always on my mind
Dreaming what it would be like to be with her, I wanna find
I need to know her and everything she likes…
Well thanks to my imagination and day dreaming, I’m contented
to sleep soundly with her on my thoughts

Sometimes I really wanna let time fly by
Then wait for tomorrow to arrive to see her smile
Her simple face that makes me fall easily
Her humor that she can only do freely

I always find myself thinking of her everyday
As to if she bewitch me with her simpleness
If only I can reach the courage to tell her
But before any word came’s out of my mouth,
the cat caught my tongue in verse

I really had a lot of chances making a move
I would really be happy if I can be her friend
But why??? I feel something’s stopping me….
Or just because I’m not that ready…

I wish I could be more brave and daring
I wish I could do and say everything
Then maybe just once I can prove to myself
That I can over come my fear for love and regret

Feelings Defined!

In the right time nor right place
Love blooms and grows with grace
To nurture it means commitment
Just like in school, you always do your assignments

If the love you believe failed to be the right one
And all tumbles down and felt like everything’s gone
Don’t lose hope and lose faith
Trust in it coz I know it will be great

Love is endless and unconditional
It’s always free and so natural
This is the definition of love
Even thou it hurts sometimes
Bear it and endure for it’s worth it

Thou love seems so hard to hold
Just relax and it will unfold
I been a hopelessly romantic person
Not to mention that I’m corny too

But what can I do it’s just me not pretending even if I’m blue
I tend to let other see that I’m always happy and care free
But little did they know
How depress sometimes I could be

So now as I try to remember
Every heart aches and in my eternal slumber
Each throb that had come to my life
Only you had been worth the time and love to do a double strife

I will always love you
Till my life is through
Till forever comes to an end
The feelings I felt will always stay and can never be bent

“ I found this old poem of mine since I was in High school hahaha!”

Beneath A Smile

I often heard, several times
Friends and relatives try to describe me
I’m a person that seems to have no worries
Always carefree that’s what they see

But little did they know
I’m trying to forget the deep shit I’m in
All the bad memory slowly shows
As I sit in my room doing nothing

Pain is already consuming me
Day by day a torment I must live with
I always work alone before
Depending on my self the world so cold

All my life I waited for a chance
To be someone that I may be
To stand alone I have glanced
Burdens and anguish all at once

Traveling from place to place
There’s no road that leads me home
People I see along the way I pity
I can’t help not until now

All I have is a Smile
That comforts me in my darkest hours
Trying to laugh at the problems I have
Trying to wish they would all go away…

Either my family sucks or I just been born like this
A destiny no one ever wanted
Broken family a first start
A big duh??!

There’s only one person that keeps me going
She’s all I have amidst all the insanity
Trying to hold back all the tears that might fall
To show I’m invincible that’s what I would be.

The Big Difference

Now that I have tasted having two at the same time
It’s becoming hard for me, to adjust…
In my lonely boring room that I have always stayed in
A lot has been changed, since I had encountered…

I may not be worthy anymore and I have been stained
To dance two with tango, which I cant truly deny
I feel so guilty and crushed at the same time
To have it all at once, is it too much to ask? Or not?

It’s like you had the taste of both heavens at the same time
And trying not to break the bond that has been made…
To reach the heart of that crossroad may be your decision
But you will experience it with too much anguish and confusion

So many questions will pop up inside your mind
So how was it? Will this be the same forever? Was it worth while?
Will I lose? What happens next? Etc….
This is a very critical moment and I must endure…
To stay this way in love with both persons a trial adjourns

Weighing the feelings that you had, the choosing and loosing
Who will be the one or can I have them both??? ~_~
It’s very wrong from the very start yet you pushed through
The consequence or payback might not be pretty so be ready

Chain

Things I though that wouldn’t happen is now starting
Fear clouded my judgment and now I did wrong
I only wish to make you smile…
When all I did was to make cry…

Moments that I have spent with you and the words we trade
Is now nothing but meaningless thoughts we create
And I feel sorry for my self being so stupid and so blind
With every thing we had left to rot in the corner of our minds

Trying to face each day being a MIME
And deceiving everyone with a single smile
I cannot show my real self and the rest…
For that I have lost being at my best

To find love again in this world I move in…
Its not what I expected, didn’t prepared for it
Now that it slowly FADING again…
In my remorse, like being trap in a den

I wanna express everything that I have in me
I wanna be the one who can make u see…
I can’t act as free as I can…
Coz I know the world would judge me then…

Glare

The day ends with a hole in my heart
As I have known it’s what I’m lacking
If only you got all options and opportunity in a cart
It would be nice if u can choose each beginning

If I was strong and could make everything go
I’d start by going back to the past and remake it
Remove the sadness and pain make it blow
Keep the good times and best moments fit

A very naïve boy like me has to grow up
Been stagnant and rooted in this place
Has become hard to leave and reach the top
Feeling hopeless and lonely makes it a haze

I can’t picture my future yet and can’t predict
For I never made anything to make it happen
A long run is needed again to max out this conflict
Years of patience will be tested will be blacken

Another curtain closes and all the performers bow
Like the end of a fairy tail they all live happily ever after
We often day dream of how we would be someday it echo’s
Decision is yours to make and the right ones will be your armor

Distracted

Days I have lived under this roof has been numbered
An end to which I had never expected
I haven’t been myself lately
Wishing that time would stop completely

Day dreaming wondering in cyber world
Placing my self under my avatar hurled
Making it my real world sometimes
It’s very easy living in that game environment

And after playing that I’m back to reality
A ton of problems waiting just for me
How do I ever fix this damn freaking life of mine!?
When the world is so cruel with too much crime

I’m having difficulties making up for the time lost
Lord I’m so sorry if I have been too bad if that’s the cost
My miserable life I have to live with forever
The heaviest burden that can’t be weight much longer

Good thing I have people around, that loves me
That I can run too when I’m crushed and in need
Thou I’m facing another crappy challenges
To keep on and never give up! That’s how life changes!

Dismay

I thought I would be happy, with what I gained
Thou it may seem selfish, I guess I’m not contented
I have seen love several times
It come’s and goes like day and night

This may be the first time, I have fallen out of love
To that someone, I can’t understand why?
She may be fair or not, but to me it’s nothing
Now I have tried to regain that lost emotions

But not to avail, it may be lost forever…
As my heart tries to search for the special feeling
I don’t know why all of a sudden, the fire went out.
I don’t have anyone else… or somebody new…

All I wanna do now is to be alone and see…
I lost my touch to keep my love strong
When I thought that it was all I needed
Maybe I’m just facing a lot of problems…

So now I won’t do anything yet
And say what I have in me, I still care for that person
Maybe I was just been too concealed
And didn’t see everything else around me.

The Cure

Someone I have met has an illness…
I wish I could just remove that ailment away from that person
A lot of things happened and I’m not impress
The way she thinks always reflex her actions

I can’t do anything when it strikes…
I’m not a doctor or nurse in critical situations
Hope is all I have and a prayer to give a spike
As to ignorance, I have been dwelling on

The pain and agony I saw on her face…
She tried to smile though it was in vain…
I know she’s trying to be strong in her case
But to me it shouldn’t be like a game

She just ignores the sickness and continues with no care
As if it was never there at the first place…
She‘s just like my aunt with cancer, before
You’ll never know where it will end…

I have seen her suffered long enough
I need a way to save her and bring her back to the normal life…
One way or another, a thing like this has a cure
The only answer to all my questions and dilemma.

Can’t let love slip away

I have loved my girl for a very long time…
She’s been a very BIG part of me, since from the very start
As I look back on how the years passed, we shined
To be together and holding on, never be apart

Day and night we stayed together
Sharing lonely moments that spells forever
And each day we see, our love gets stronger
Growing every minute, that we get closer

And if one day we have to say goodbye
Go on our separate ways, I think I would cry…
I wouldn’t know how to get by on my own, I might die
After all the loving and passion you have shown…

So as for me, I’ll never say goodbye
I’ll do anything to never break the chain
Even if were separated by distance
I’ll cross any part of the world to be home with you

My heart only rest in your arms
It’s where I found love and completeness
You have been my life’s commitment
To be with you forever, I will never regret…

Blue Skies

All day long I sat here in front of my window
Counting clouds, smelling the cool breeze of air
At one moment I noticed as the wind blows
It all become so quiet I can’t compare

I was in a trance and all was so peaceful
Seeing the trees sway and the rice field as well
The only place to complete the hole…
That’s been missing in my heart I can tell

The feeling I missed for quiet sometime
To describe, it’s like where you truly belong
A place which you watch as seasons change
And all of the memories of love and songs

As I watch the sun set on the hills
A lot of simple things flash in front of me
You cannot be rich to have it all
Nor poor to say you cannot have anything…

We all live underneath the same blue sky
It makes us one thou we are individuals
And we all share its rays and sunlight
The bluish color that give you comfort so cool!

So always be ready for anything that comes
Like typhoon or rain storms you can’t predict them at once
Because when it rains you’ll always get wet
There’s no escape through it I can tell…

Rising Force Under Dog

My Race as a member of the Holy Alliance of Cora
Suffered too much in the start of the crimson dawn…
Before that started we owned the mines like hell
And even if we are small in numbers we fight till the end

Other races can’t be compared to the ups and downs we had
Even in the start of exploring the novus sector…
It really sucks to have few backup along the way
So you really have to help each other out in tight situations

Supplies are also very short and in demand
You’ll gonna have a hard time looking for your desired equipments
But the best part of it, is that, you will easily know more of the people you interact with
Like a oval that goes around in circles, you’ll always see each other

Another problem is that we are lacking in unity
Most of us are loners and would just fight like we are 1 against the world
Because that’s what most of the pioneers experience in the old days
You’ll always have to look out for your selves

You rarely see my race in numbers but we have the iron will
Even if the wars seem to be lost and in to vain
We still manage to race and defend our chip.
And we need a stronger leader to help us defeat the other races

Acretians and the ferderation of Belato union has been our biggest problem
They have been attacking our neutral settlements
We, the children of Decem must not falter in any form
For we are the neutral race and to keep the order in its rightful place

Chime

Music that plays inside my mind over and over

That has a lot of relevant meaning that portraits me

A sound of melody that makes you laugh or cry

A song that tells your life and how you struggled amidst the odds

Inspired and jiving on how you hear it

Your own definition of the paragraphs with each line

Takes you the time when you have fallen and risen

Like when the tables turn, you will never know

Bells that ring and rhymes with every single beat

A flawless chime of romance and reality

All at once has been a picture perfect on your mind

Events which you have no control

Medley of each and every person that blends

Joining all and all with serenity and harmony

It touches the heart and soul with all its meaning

And describes a tune of relaxed atmosphere

But when all has not combine and agree with one another

Distraction and its entire whole will be broken

Play it with all you have and don’t be astray

To continue its grace and fulfill its momentum…

It’s A Date

I was a bit late, but all came out as we have expected
The night was young so we had a little chat about our day
Seeing her eyes sparkle and dance, while telling me her secrets
She’s like a child that had found someone to play with X_X

We went to my place after all that has been said and done
We listened to some music and sing some songs ^_^
We didn’t had enough sleep last night even if we’re already in bed X_X
We had some more chitchat the whole evening till morning ^_^

We talk about what’s gonna happen next…
And how we will be seeing each other again
I was so hesitant to make any moves
So I just laid back and relaxed

After falling to sleep just a couple of hours
She woke me up to put my arms around her as she tried to sleep
Having her so close to me, I can already smell the perfume she’s wearing
The scent of her hair that made me crazy and cant stop from kissing it.

She smiled and kissed me back to my surprise ^_^
We had our moment and it was so GREAT!
I still can’t forget what happened this morning and still dreaming about it
As we say our goodbye’s I can’t believe that she’s already mine.

Lazy Mornings ^_^

I open my eyes and see you beside me.
To stay like this with you, a beautiful view
To see the sun touch your skin and see your eyes on me
Your morning smiles that takes me out of the blue

Whispering to your ears how much you mean to me
And hugging you oh so tight and say I missed you!
To kiss your nose and your eyes that’s what I might do
For I’m so happy to have someone like you

How I wish to wake up each day with you
To have you all by my self for the rest of my life
And to have and prepare your breakfast you don’t have a clue
I will make sure that it will be special and hyped!

After eating break fast in bed
A lot of cuddling before we get set
I’m a really romantic person, but only to the one I loved
To live in this world with you I have no regrets

As we make it through our daily routines
To be back again to each others arms I always dream
To hear you giggles and laughter in scenes
It melts my heart and me like a cream

And when its time to sleep, you want me to massage you
To smell your hair and kiss your skin my way of showing I love you
May it lead to passion or not as long I have you
Again, my mornings will always be great coz I’m with YOU!